RE: 4 Month homeless or free?
Actually don't listen to me @flipstar, I think you will become more experienced traveler than I am, and you will learn more. Experience is our own spiritual teacher.
I also read about Eckhart Tolle's "Power of Now", this book is more like a detailed version of Anthony de Mello's "Awareness".
Yeah, I agree not associating with those people if you know you cannot control yourself. I just came back from Colombia 3 months ago, that was the last country where I was in, and you know the "things" that are in Colombia. I was staying in a hostel for weeks, and my friends from Germany and France were inviting me to parties with all the drugs - coke, mj, some other drugs I don't know really, and I totally lost control. That was my birthday and the weeks after that. I didn't know myself anymore and I had a very bad mood. So I left them and flew back to my country, that was the end of my journey... ;)
We will see what the future brings. But for now I am sitting happy again in my bungalow. Looking forward to tomorrow.
Yes what you are describing is exactly what I am afraid of and I need to protect myself a bit because as much as I like to be healthy and fit atm as much I like to do this kind of shit and the hangover is killing me, especially mentally.
@flipstar You'll find the balance. Sometimes I miss hangover and being with people, but it also nice to stay like this sometimes... Have a nice day!