Dear Life: Body Rock | My Body's Dance with it's Own Music
I was having a hard time looking at my tablet as I type and I would turn my head on the left and confirm that it wasn't my left eye which has the problem but my progressing deformity below the eye socket down to the chin . It wasn't like this just a few weeks ago because at least nothing is blocking my left vision when I look down straight.
I am just hoping that this terrible condition affects my vision but who knows? Things that I never saw coming unto my life just barged in and stayed for good. Things that I am hoping not to happen, happened. So I am like "OK, just take me as a captive" and left it to fate to do what it wants to my body. Now I have no more control over my body except to fuel it's basic needs, it dances unto it's own music, rocking my life for which I am shaken with a worry of how worse it could get and how long could I possibly take this?
As half of my head grows out at gross proportions I could just feel the compounding problems to the functions it creates. Now I cannot look down so easy. I have to somewhat look sideways to where I am looking at. I even have some trouble writing this short article because my left eye is being blocked by my "snout." I just wish that things in me to stop and it would be all better.
Depressing as I may look, I am not depressed at all because of the comfort I am getting from the people around me that includes even the persons behind this screen which makes me feel happy and contented. So I would just enjoy some simple things in life like when there is a tasty food that I can eat or I am not having a trouble breathing and or sleeping.
This was me about 10 years ago
I never did take another photo of myself after this because my appearance just went worse as years go by.
This is me today
I closed my mouth in this photo but normally it is open because as you can see, the bone is bulging out. Maybe with some whiskers and extra fangs plus a little make-up I might live to what my condition is called, "Leontiasis" Lionface.
Hello cryptopie, I observed people being negative today complaining about not being served fast enough and how someone was not dressed to suit the wants of someone in management. It is all so meaningless to be upset about these things. Today I was just thankful that I had a roof over my head , a job to go to and food in my fridge. What else do we really need to live. So many folks really don't know how good they have it. They have everything and still complain. Life to me is not about material things or money. Life is about how we treat other people along this journey. I believe if I have a need that I must help another with their need and my need will be met. People just do not get the concept that there are things they need and things they want. Most of the stuff they want they don't even need. When my mom passed away I felt guilty that I am still living when she is not. When people are vain and selfish I think about my mom and I think about the ones who have real needs . I was glad when I woke up this morning that life has given me another day. That is what I am thankful for. I am glad you are here to read this comment. I hope things get better for you soon and I am believing for it. I think both of us have many days ahead of us to believe for the better.
Thank you for telling your positive insights @rt66neon
Life as I say itself is a gift enough and we are just so very lucky to be born and witness some of it in this world. I am still thankful for what little how my fate in life has given me and try to live most of it with happiness because some of the people around me just also tries to support me all the way through and I don't want to disappoint them. Truly, having only the basics in life with a good health plus God if we are religious is the best ingredients for happiness and contentment.
We would be nothing without God,
You are very courageous... I'm happy for you that you are not depressed, you have enough ti deal with... Keep on going like this, I admire you 🌺
Hi @jamisa
I appreciate your words of encouragement. I do need a lot of people who would be there just ready to listen and care like you. Thank you.
you need to concern it with a specialist soon