Writing this is so brave. I am really proud of you for sharing this and raising awareness - also very glad to know more about you. We have an increasing amount of things in common. It makes me sad to see how much you struggle because in the short time that I have known you I have begun to truly care about you. I really wish there were some way I could help. You have such a beautiful soul and the people who are worthy already accept you for everything that you are. I would never want to make you feel worse by giving advice that does not properly show respect or understanding. I am really sorry if I have - unintentional. I can relate to true depression and anxiety and also exactly what you mean when these words are used too lightly. Without meaning to lessen what you go through - I would say there are different levels of the real kind. I am on another level and work so hard to cover over up my anxiety and depression that it might not appear to be that bad. But it really is. Many of your words here echo my thoughts. I only bring up myself because I wanted you to know that I do understand. You aren't alone in this. I am here for you if you need to talk. <3