Walking on Glass would be Easier Than This

He hates me
He loves me
He wishes I'd leave
He doesn't want me to leave

He knows he messed up.
"You're the most important person in my life" he says
"All I want is you back.
I'll do whatever it takes" he says.

"Can you help me?"
Yes, here's the clinic.
"That's not what you called the clinic last time"
Him: It's all been lies with you
Me: It's the same clinic that locals shorten to "Northway".....SMH!!!!

Me: I kindly asked you to vacuum for the first time in 6 months.
You: angry outburst

Me: please get yourself some mental health
You: angry outburst

Me: I still care about you. If you can get yourself in a safe mental & emotional status via professional health, we can reevaluate this relationship.
Him: angry outburst, "! wish i could just go at people's jugulars sometimes"

1800 miles is a long cross country trip which I now have to do for my own mental and emotional safety.

But regardless, despite I drove 5000 miles in totality to be with you. It's cool I don't need this garbage. Because I am being made to FEEL like garbage.

Just roll out the GLASS carpet already, i don't need shoes, it'd be cake compared to thus.

I drove 1200 miles TWICE once to visit, once to move in with someone I believed to be the love of my life, yet they CAN'T VISIT when & if they get mentally healthier.

He hates me
He loves me
He wishes I'd leave
He doesn't want me to leave


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