Just Life

My grandma had her second stroke.
Im refecting “ifs”, “should haves”, “could haves”, and “wish I’d”.
No I don’t have pictures of our visit.

I was called the morning she was to fly in, short notice. But I drive two hours to pick up my grandma and grandpa. I took the kids to the airport with me. We where able to actually walk into the small plane area, like the old days and watch planes land and take off!
We seen a huge cargo plane take off, they loved that! Then they heard dual prop planes wind-up and unwind. Very cool, experience!

Her plane, I thought we had missed them.

Her plane came in an hour late because of the remains of the tropical storm that has given us relief from the heat wave. It has been raining for two days.

We drove her to Providence Medical Center in Anchorage. The biggest and best hospital we have in Alaska.

We don’t know much about what’s going on with her yet. Just tests and more tests.

She means a lot to me.
She was there when my own mother wasn’t.
She took me in when I was a teen and was kicked out “for safety”.
She helped me with the triplets. She helped me take them to the doctor. She helped me when I was sick and they were too.
She helped me with the triplets and didn’t hover.
I knew I could count on her when I had no one.

Now she is sick. She has lost weight(she wasn’t even that large to begin with), but she only lost it because she has no appetite. She is cold a lot of the time now too.

She had a long day today. Appointments starting at 7am, she got very little sleep the night before. She was frozen, while my grandpa was sleeping on top of the covers.

I drove in again today, second day.
I took them home cooked meals. My grandpas favorite, pork and beans. And a chicken soup with lentils and carrots.

Today as my grandma was falling asleep my grandpa and I talked. I cried.

I asked if they wanted me to come tomorrow, they said they needed to clear their thoughts from all that’s been going on.

Pettiness, stupid fights, and a move separated us for 6 years.
I will leave it at that.

This is my life in Alaska