Hope is that others see me talking openly about this sort of thing and feel they can as well without ridicule.

Balance isn't something I even strive to achieve because I don't believe naturally I'm capable of such. One huge advantage I have over others with bipolar is I'm rapid cycling.. I can go from king klye to dirt and back all within the course of an hour (sometimes less time). It does get tiring to "bounce of the walls" so to speak but I'd rather that then get stuck one way or the other for too too long.

I think depression in part stems from intelligence as well.. Although how I'm not exactly sure how to put into words yet.