Just It.
I've been having trouble posting.
Nothing technical.
It's in my head.
Unless I'm a robot.
Then it's technical.
Mostly it's just the fact that I don't feel like it. I'm at that point that I don't even have that many ideas on how to proceed with the things that I know I could write about. Like the story. You know what story I mean if you have read any posts of mine last year. If you don't, it's the first link at the bottom of this post. I have an idea on how to proceed, I just can't find the right words.
And I haven't had the time. Working more means less time for other activities. But we all know that that's an excuse. We all know that it's always about reorganizing things. About doing the stuff you need to do, quickly and efficiently. Not waiving your hands in vain. So that leaves me again with the fact that I just don't feel like it. I could, but I just can't bring myself doing it.
I may start something, but as I'm doing it, my mind takes the lazy ass step and says to me: "Is this really necessary? You've already done all the stuff that had to be done. Does it really mean anything or change anything if you do this thing that isn't that important anyway? You can do it and still feel like shit, or you can just not do it and do something else that makes you feel good. Like sleeping or eating or petting cats or listening to music or watching Netflix. Or you could just lay on the floor and stare at the ceiling. Now how does that sound?" And I'm answering to myself: "Well that sounds awfully good. I'll just do nothing then."
And if somebody calls, sends whatsupfaceinstatext messages or rings the doorbell, I'll just ignore them.
Because I'm busy.
Doing nothing.
Source: https://www.dezeen.com/2015/03/14/nike-just-do-it-slogan-last-words-murderer-gary-gilmore-dan-wieden-kennedy
Give me ideas, get SBI! – A Story
https://steempeak.com/story/@insaneworks/mansion-and-a-diary-a-story
I like metal parts, gears, screwing, breaking stuff and reassembling.
https://steempeak.com/photography/@insaneworks/sunset-after-sunset-after-sunset-after-sunset
I like to think that I am a creator. I sure do have ideas! Some of those are also good.
https://steempeak.com/idea/@insaneworks/i-have-an-idea-talents-and-talent-supporters-please-read-this
I am a music addict.
https://steempeak.com/music/@insaneworks/always-searching-for-new-music-and-artists
I like photographing but most of the time, I just can't decide.
https://steempeak.com/photography/@insaneworks/heavy-duty-cropping
My method of doing everything and anything. Art, coding, writing...
https://steempeak.com/art/@insaneworks/10-thousand-monkeys-art-method
And here's my introduction post.
https://steempeak.com/introducemyself/@insaneworks/is-it-too-late-to-introduce-myself
I feel, you, we, me should always be true to the way we feel.
If it's any motivation, at all, though, I'd miss you and your quirky Very Important Posts. I enjoy stepping beyond the VIP ropes and entering your world. ❤
Thank you for your kind words. :) They are very important to me.
I'm hoping being true to myself ultimately leads to the point when I find myself excited again about everything I do. All the have to dos and the have to don'ts. (Or is it all the dos and the don'ts.) All the things that I have to do and don't have to, but I tell myself that I should, or else...
My quirkiness has locked itself to a dark hole at the moment. But I'll try to lure it out with modified cat toys, Rick and Morty, fart cushions and ice-cream.
Now that for ne is the beginning of a story! 😁
Another story! Oh boy oh boy. More tasks! :D
@penderis first called this video to my attention, the first day we met. Wow, that was a coupla months ago. It's been a wild ride.
I can totally relate to this! Usually I manage to get the absolutely necessary work done either right away or (depending on the monkey) at least by the deadline. But now unfortunately it seems that the monkey is sick and my Dark Playground (Steemit and Insaneworks) has become an issue. The monkey is just not playing and my serious self does not know how to have fun. Hence the watching ceiling option.
But I guess the monkey will come back with the right kind of banananananananana. Some day.
Hell I don't even know how to comment! I mean, I know I want to convey how I too feel this way. I in fact just before reading this scrolled through a thousand interesting pics on my phone hoping to crank out any kind of post not related to crypto, censorship, bitching about bots "botching" but it just didn't happen.
Ideally, I'd offer some encouragement or support but I'm over the self help stuff too, if you need that just go to trending it's all there. You know the good stuff. 🤐
I'm so insignificant here I can turn this rambling mostly incoherent comment into a post with a cat in a hat pic and I'd get the same response if I'd released a blockbuster full length feature film on the blockchain.
So, in conclusion just enjoy your now, if you feel like writing great, if you feel like staring at the ceiling or watching Heman on Netflix also great. I go to Heman and the masters of the universe when I really don't want to feel or think or anything. I definitely enjoy that mood too, the I'm not even concerned with self edification or or anything relevant to my sentience mood that is.
I'm even too apathetic to twerk this into a shitpost now, back to the ceiling...
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I am a nightmare to motivational speakers and people who think they rock at motivating. It's funny thing, if a motivation post does it for me, I probably didn't need the motivation boost to begin with. And when I need one the most, I have not yet met a single motivation text or speaker that could get me out of the bad emotions and lack of enthusiasm swamp that I have let myself sink in to.
They all just seem weirdly happy, too energetic and false to me. I'm just thinking: "Now why the hell someone doesn't point out that happiness and the energy to do stuff is just a bit lie and we are all going to die."
I should make a post about that.
Some day.
My favorite series on Netflix during the Christmas holidays was Narcos. Lots of blood, killing and drugs in it. All the happy things that anyone could ever require for holidays. A really good series.
I guess we just have to be miserable and hope the feeling goes away some day.
Love your words by the way. "Botching" and "twerk this into a shitpost". :)
Well that sounds damn good, I am not even going to argue. I know the feeling, and usually, it is because I just don't want to now stop nagging me. My boss does not like that. You can tell us how it goes in a daily update post? has the ceiling changed was there a particularly interesting fly?
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I knew you would understand. :) And sorry, that you do understand. :(
I can't watch the ceiling anymore. You have made it a chore. A have to thing. I have to think of something else. Perhaps I'll pull cats whiskers. Unless that's too exciting. Yeah. Might be.
I'll just stare at the keyboard then. And perhaps bang my forehead to it whenever I feel like it.
klfgdvnvgklöadämöv nömzhiglon kl.dsa,öoujeptnbkfd
Much better.
Funny thing is that might be real Finnish.
You can use the following prompt to write something :)
Can I validate that?
Let's say that I can.
"I validate, that @penderis is Finnish."
It couldn't see, that it couldn't see.
The end.
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Thank you @penderis. Again. :)
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