I know how that feels man.. i really do.. but this is the hard part that weeds out the weak who don't deserve to be great on steemit.. trust me, everyone puts in there time before getting big on steemit.. and dont feel bad man, i honestly wouldnt do that much better than u on steemit if i didnt have upvote services.. lol.. i make like $5 per post because of that, and once a post has a few dollars on it (and u have a rep above 50) other people are more likely to take a look at it.. so just keep trucking, i promise u will get there, you are a much better writer than me ;)
continuing in another post, sorry, got to long to continue writing on my phone lol