@andywong31 thank you for your kind words. I will have more succes in the future, 2018 started really well for us, and I have learned some valuable lessons during this period. Some things are hard and I can't see why they happened, but I am confident one day the 2 oldest will be with me again. You're welcome, I hope to help/inspire others going through this hard things to see the light at the end of the tunnel, as I know how difficult that is...