Infact at one point, I felt like moving outside on top of the roof and just shout..., but that was all crazy.

I've done that. I felt better 🙂

The main aim should be embracing where your life is at at this moment and make the best out of it, which you are already doing to the best of my knowladge.

I don't think that I am. I want to reach the point where I can stop saying (and feeling) that "My life is not my own".