I just bought an Indian-made vitamin to stimulate my Appetite
This brand of appetite stimulant imported from an Indian manufacturing company is very affordable compared to other brands of appetite stimulants that can be bought here in my country.
It has been a very long time ever since I lost my normal appetite and it happened after I used Cinacalcet. I thought that discontinuing of the use of my hyperparathyroidism medicine that it would restore my appetite again, but didn't happen. That is why I am now not a thin person anymore but is in the category of emaciation. I look too bad physically that most people doesn't treat me as normal, they look and treat me so differently. It is also a reason that I really do not want to mingle with people anymore, they seem to be very prejudice towards me and I can feel the subtle hostile demeanor or maybe most people in general is prejudice which is of course sad to realize and also experience.
Anyway, I keep on fighting back by at least trying hard to make a difference about my appearance near normal state so that I can be treated better or normally unlike to this type of creature which in most part, a creature of either curiosities or a thing no more valuable than a street dog or both in the prejudicial eyes of many people in all walk of life and background. No matter how I tried to eat normally, it would turn out that I have an disability to do that anymore, I can say that I am anorectic but not believing that I am fat. My emaciated issue had stuck to me ever since I am younger which obviously frustrated me more than ever and I can't seem to put a solution unto it.
People will treat you differently if you look differently, it is one problem which I am experiencing twhich I want to solve.
It came to a point that I used to buy a meal replacement milk so that I can have a chance to fatten-up. It didn't work considering that it seems to be impractical to use Nepro™ because of its very forbidding cost. In the end I also discontinued in using it, I also bought what the nurses had been prescribing as an appetite stimulant but those brands are also expensive for me and out of my budget because I am just earning a little now online although we can say that health comes first before anything else.
It is also seems that drinking that meal replacement milk is heavy on my stomach plus I get tried of its taste especially if you would consume it two times per day every passing day. However I am happy to consume it if some people would donate me some cans of it, but because of its cost I just have to forget about it and find more ways to add some mass to my body. Eating food has been a very complicated matter for me because it can get more expensive but in the end I will not achieve any difference but a lighter pocket and still a lighter body mass.
A meal might get delicious but eating it is another thing. Replacing it with a meal replacement milk didn't gave any difference for me.
Gaining some weight has been my problem even when I was younger. It just deteriorated more after I had quit my studies in College and it continued slowly until I went for my first dialysis session. My lower weight of 52 Kg went down to 48Kg, then down to 42, then down to 38, and now I am somewhere around 32Kg or lower. I still can't accept that I had lost so much weight which is also why I am still seeking ways to do that. I cannot wait until my body regains its normal appetite because it has been a very long wait already and nothing changes.
Now I would try this appetite stimulant of it would work for me and I am waiting for it to be delivered to my doorsteps any hour maybe today in the time of this writing. I also had read some reviews about this particular brand and if it does work for me then I would use it for the time being. What I do not like about appetite stimulants was their s-de-effect of making me feel drowsy all the time. I cannot be so sleepy so much because of the nature of my online work/hobby because of my need to write something and it will be hard to do it if my brain is not stimulated although maybe I can drink some coffee to counter being sleepy.
Even if I have a normal appetite I have to look after my food so that I will not get overdosed with nutrients that are harmful to my bones.
I am optimistic that this brand will work for my purposes, to make me meat my daily protein and calorie intake and also enjoy my meals even how simple my meals are and not like what I am experiencing everyday where it feels like a chore to eat food even if the food tastes good. One factor that limits me from eating normal amounts of food is my physical capacity with regards to the physical space in my abdomen to house the amounts of foods that I would ingest. The reason was because of my backbone's curvature which effectively squeezed out my lungs with its full capacity along with my other internal organs like my stomach.
So if God wills it that I can solve that part of my crazy and very complicated problem, then it might result for some good benefits especially for the easing of my breathing, I will not be so breathless anymore because of that and I am so sure about it and then solve my difficulty in breathing even with some simple exertion like walking plus I can eat more without the feeling of being stuffed so much while and after eating because of the supposed added space in my torso. Although it is a punch in the moon to make it happen, it is the only solution for those physical issues that I am currently suffering from right now.
Keep smiling dear courage is your best defence.
Thank you very much for your kind words. It is frustrating that I had lost my appetite so much.
Upvoted! Thank you for supporting witness @jswit.