Hi. It's me, @NoNamesLeftToUse.  Remember me?  We shared so much together, didn't we?

I thought we had something!

Life Hasn't Been the Same

^{Since you left me.}

I miss you.

I miss those happy times.  Remember all the smiles?  I miss smiling.  I haven't smiled since, you know, the day you left me.

Why did you leave me!

^{I'm cold.  I'm lonely.}

What about Christmas?  How am I supposed to be merry and bright?  Did you think of that before you decided to move in with that other guy?  I had big plans for us.  Now it's just me and the cat.  Your cat.  Your stupid cat that still shits on the blankets at night while I'm sleeping.

I think of you every time I clean that shit!

^{I loved you!  I hated the cat!}

Yes.  I still feed him his favorite food.  He still gets the best seat on the couch in front of the TV and yes he still scratches me if I sit anywhere else but on the cold floor, alone.

I started drinking again.

^{Only about ten beers per day though.}

I won't blame you.  My counselor said I must take responsibility for my own actions so I've been working on that and I've come to the realization the only reason I drink is because you used to drink and I miss you.  When I hold the bottle to my lips I'm reminded of those nights we used to have together under the stars in summer.  Do you remember that summer?  I can't seem to forget it.  It's all I think about now because I drink so much but I'll try to stop, for you.  I'd do that for you.  I'd do anything for you and if that means I have to start shaking and convulsing on the floor because I need a drink but you said no — that's okay!  We can do this together!  Like the old days.

I lost my job.

^{They said I had an attitude problem.}

I used to be such a good guy.  Then you left me.  Why!  What did I do to deserve this!  I eat out of dumpsters again but that's only because they kicked me out of McDonald's permanently for making a public disturbance after I saw your favorite meal.  The number three. Supersized.

I thought I saw you so I sat down with you and started to talk about the good days we used to have shopping for cat sweaters together.  I was struck across the head and that's when I realized I was just talking to some random old lady who eats the same things you do.  Apparently I was harassing her for ten minutes but it only felt like a glimpse of the past we once shared together.  My life was flashing before my eyes.

I heard you're a prostitute now.

^{Selling your services to the highest bidder.}

Was our relationship really that bad?  I turned you into a monster and for that I'm sorry.  I didn't realize my efforts were so incredibly heinous and putrid.  I could have changed you know!  You could have said, "I'm going to sell my ass on the corner if you do not shape up."

I would have listened to you!

I always listened to you.  I used to spend hours looking at your stuff.  Now you're gone and you took everything except for this stupid cat!

Screw you!

^{Wait!  No!  Come back!  I didn't mean that!  I'm emotionally unstable!  That's all!}

I'm just overly sensitive these days and I need help.  I need you to take care of me.  I can't do this on my own.  I'm ruined without you.  Please come back to me!  I'll even wear the clothes you bought me this time and I won't say mean things while you're trying to get me to do dishes but I only want to play video games.  Please!

I miss you!

Please come back!

Credits:All art and images seen here were produced digitally, by me.
^{"You get paid to look away and I cry inside every night now... Please come back, curators!"}

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