@byn thank you so much for this lovely comment, i wanted to make sure i had enough time to give you a proper response back since this is a very sensitive subject and one i take very seriously. i thank you so much for sharing of yourself and your situation. it's not easy to admit and as you know that is the first step. sometimes it is okay to talk to "strangers" as it is a very easy way to let it all out. i'm not sure if you've tried mediation and listening to grounding music, also taking long walks helps a lot. i hope you find a way to let your quietness out, like talking to all of us in a post. we are all here for each other. that has been the amazing thing about steemit for me. i find that if i want to open up there are many that will listen and i love that.
i'm glad this has been on your mind and i'm happy i was able to be here for you in some small way. thank you again for sharing your self. much love, eagle spirit