Wow, if this post is about you, then I applaud you for opening up about yourself and the challenges you face. I used to enjoy being around lots of people, but the older I get, the more I prefer one or two at a time. It's easier to focus on a conversation that way. I've never been drunk, so I don't know what kind of a drunk I am. I've always said I can make a big enough fool out of myself when sober, so why bother getting drunk? I hope you have a cat or a dog to keep you company. They are excellent companions.