FreeWrite || Disoriented

It has been so long since I did a Free Write. When I first started, I would do it on a daily because it helped me fire up a post.

The prompts triggered all sorts for me. Mostly fiction, stories I read today, a year later and am surprised at what came out whacking at the qwerty keys, racing against the timer.

It wasn't always fiction though. Every now and then, a memory gets resurrected. Occasionally a thought or an idea would sneak in.

That's the thing I loved about @mariannewest and the Free Writes. There was no rule. Even the whole idea of writing for 5 minutes using the prompt was just a guideline.

You are free to express yourself. Write longer than 5 minutes if you were compelled to finish your story. Fix your spelling mistakes, the grammar slip ups... or don't... it didn't matter. But I can safely say most of us made it a point...to post something that was readable, that the reader would enjoy.

The idea was not to second guess yourself. Marianne even gathered some volunteers to swing around the Free Writes to read them. If someone took the time to write and share, at least one person should read it.

There was only one rule - No Plagirsm. As long as the work was yours, you were good to post it.... or not post it. And this really got me into the habit of writing every single day.

Hmmmmmmm

For over a week now, I have been feeling a bit disorientated. I told myself that today I will get back to one video a day. I had slacked some since having too good a time at Steemfest.

After the first couple of days in Bangkok, I decided I didn't need to share every single thing as it took me away from actually being really present. And since then, it has became easier to let some days go without a post.

I spent today with many starts and stops and finally got something together. Then I looked at the finished video and I just couldn't bring myself to upload it. Not that it was bad. It was pretty good but I just wasn't feeling it. So I guess, I will get back to it tomorrow.

So I did the next best thing - I stared through my feed, I came across the prompt for the day....Yes!!! This is what I need. To get me out of this meh feeling. And so here I am!!

Now I am thinking, is it the price of Steem that was giving me the blues? I don't think so as it has never been my priority. If fact, I am hoping some Fiat will fall into my hands so I could get me some Steem.

Could it be the lull setting over SteemVerse? My feed does seem quieter than usual. Perhaps there is a little bit of that. Have seen a couple of goodbye posts and that does bring about a mood.

Perhaps it is the aftermath of SteemFest. The build up to go, and then being there and experiencing the vibes, and now back to routine. That could be it. For months there was something to look forward to and work towards. Culminating into an experience that did not disappoint.

So now what? Don't get me wrong. I missed my family and home. But I guess, it's time to set the next goal. To get the adrenaline pumping again.

OMG!! I think that's what it is! hahaha!! You see... this is why I love the Free Writes. I always come out at the end pleased.

Yes, I do have a tendency to get a little bored of doing the same thing over and over again. One of the very many reasons, I never quite got into a 9 to 5 job, well not until the kids came. And that too because someone planted that idea in my head and convinced me... like my then boss.

But I did embrace it and ran with it. It came with its learning curves, some very steep but it's what kept my adrenaline pumping. Besides, I loved what I did, and to learn the different aspects of running the show was exciting.

That reminds me, today as I was surfing the net, I came across a great quote/excerpt from a book by Brian Krans, The Continuous Suicide. Have you read it? I am definitely going to go look for it. This bit really really resonated with me👇

"“Don't exist.
Live.
Get out, explore.
Thrive.
Challenge authority. Challenge yourself.
Evolve.
Change forever...."

Go have a read and let me know what you think.

Oh, how I have missed these Free Writes. I would recommend it to anyone who is stuck and can't seem to think of what to write. Something about not thinking and just going for it. It's like unclogging your stuck thoughts and words.

Well, I have definitely gone over 5 minutes. Thank you for reading my gibberish. I truly hope you got something out of it. If you would like to give your head a bit of a rattle, swing on over to today's prompt.

Cheers,
Sh33la
25Nov19

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