It is normal to feel that way, ok. Don't worry. New authors were lured then they get judged if they become attached to those rewards. They were not 'informed about these things'. Hey new author, you will be rewarded at the beginning but only up to level 55, when you're already become attached to the community and some whales can give you $1 for each of your post, ok? Don't complain anymore.

We don't judge them from making money off us as well.

Try to stay positive and don't give a shit. The only ones you should care about is yourself and your followers. ;) Keep writing for the love of it. The rest can drown in their money, but I hope they read my advice above though.