Cosmic Magnetism & The Fear-Override | Floor Lessons - Chapter 8 (Pt. 2 - The Stubborn Art Of Not Meeting Someone)

Continuing my cosmic festival story, read up on part 1 here

As I was dancing I watched the dude I just gave a hug to walk over to his friend to share his cigarette. A group of two girls were coming over to them as well, a lovely crew and one of the few on the mainfloor easily recognizable as a 'gang'. A love gang ;) Super resonant and life-affirming in how they were body-languaging and expressing themselves - smiling, laughing, spreading positivity.

I felt good - a few crews with the heart in their right place, some awesome music by a dj I had not heard before and a magnificent nature atmosphere of calm and beauty forelighting an amazing day.

As I grew very comfortable on my position on the floor, the huge space I had for my field to dance in and the overall happening - I saw her.

I swear, I had never seen such a beautiful woman in how she expressed herself. She hit the floor with the utmost passion and was such a glory to witness.

I tried to shake the impression, but could not.

A beautiful suntanned girl, covered in mud, with a mighty smile on her face as she clearly took great pleasure in dancing in her own way without any 30 dudes in her immediate field of body energy messing with her attention. She looked just as pleasant there as I felt - it was a marvellous sight to witness. Like a long-lost princess finally getting back into the dirty fields to the mighty soundtrack she had slumbered and waited for for a millenium just to finally awake and to give it all she had. Only more hardcore...

_{This is not her, but kinda close to what I'm talking about ;)
Notice the "don't care" vibe and the sense of freedom she is enjoying, doing her thing. It's mesmerizing!}

She was pounding the dirt of the dancefloor with her bare feet to the beat, a huge smile as she clearly had a dialogue going with the spirit of the music and her inner self. Like all pros do <3 She was pounding the dirt with the might of an amazon warrior, dust coming off her heels as her movements got more intense and intense. If you have ever seen a pro sufer riding a giant wave with a smile you will know what that spirit in human beings can look like, taking utter delight in the intensity of the moment - just her and the cosmos. It was a pleasure to witness and inspired me to go harder on the music myself, claiming more space and amping up my movements.

On the main we all give each other permission to give it everything we got and are often amping each other up when the music is good. It becomes a spiral of energy that spins higher and higher, bouncing back and forth between people, the dj and the field of the music.

She was suntanned after a week in Hungarian summer and clearly totally my thing, I could not remember being so mesmerized by some dancing chick ever, and I must have seen thousands. So much so that I felt like a small school boy, just totally happy to merely witness her giving it all she had in her own bubble on the floor and me keeping my distance to let her be in her experience as I was trying to focus on mine. The music was really amazing, I could relate ;)

As these things go I was wise enough to stop projecting all my attention energy over there when it got too enticing. She'd be here, so would I and the other few people on the floor. An awesome morning for sure.

As the dj set hit its peak where you could just not resist the flow of it all even if you tried, I realized how perfect the moment was. One of the high points of my psy career for sure. I thanked myself endlessly for getting up early against the grain, it had been such a good idea!

The set went on with the few lovely people dancing here and there in the rising sun to amazing music. And eventually the floor slowly filled up with more people and the vibe became less intimate. But I swear, I was hopelessly in love. Or whatever^^

Never had I seen a woman dancing to the music with so much passion and gusto, dirty as f***, sweaty face and in complete bliss with that awesome soundtrack - I was speechless really. You may call it a giant crush I hadn't had for anyone since high school.

As the day went on in many different stories and experiences, me going back to the camp to greet my crew hours later (after they had gotten up), seeing what was up for the day and meeting more random people, we were all back by the mainfloor, our day-tent set up and getting into one of the last days of the festival. Needless to say I had had an amazing headstart and was totally in the zone of the moment.

It had been a day where LSD seemed to be a great idea considering the magical start of it all, and I opted for a small dose with some of the others. Microdoses really suit me and the shroomies had long said 'cya'.

Back by the mainfloor I saw the dude from the morning again and nodded at him from afar. He smiled back, signaling me to come join him on the floor to which i nodded with pleasure - The crew was apparently still at the main, a good eight hours later now! People tend to get into the same rhythms and during a psy festival it's quite common to run into the same crews again and again whereas other people you only see when everybody packs up, wondering where they have been all week^^

So as I was hanging out by the floor with my crew and we were dancing on the outer rim, laughing and just enjoying the day, I suddenly saw her again. There she was! That stomping queen from the morning who had so mesmerized me. God she was so beautiful, I could not shake the memory of her forceful dance, and she was still totally in the bliss zone, with a huge smile on her face and enjoying herself.

As much as I felt drawn to her though, I felt shy. Like a boy in school about to approach his first girl ever. I'm sure many guys out there can relate that if you really feel drawn to someone you tend to make it more complicated than it is, especially the longer you wait. And when you don't feel particularly drawn, communication and casual interaction come easy.

The difference of course was: Here I was, feeling the LSD which made it all the more odd, because there really are no secrets on it, especially to all those other people around who are also on that journey. I might as well carry a big-ass sign on my head reading: "Hey everybody, that girl over there seems really awesome! I just don't have the balls to do anything about it! What do I dooooooooooooo?!"

Of course, this really wasn't about anybody else, and for a moment I was thankful I had not gone on acid a lot, only a bit. Full blown trips tend to shove in your face whatever you even entertain to evade and I was definitely evading that lady, I knew that much...

I started to feel blunt with myself: "Dude, you either go over there right now and just say anything, or please stop projecting all your attention onto that girl right now. It's unfair drawing off her field like that and you know it."

And that impression in me seemed right, if you're gonna stare somebody down for hours without at least letting them know that you exist it's not really fair to them. Either say something and introduce yourself, or let it go!

I chose the latter as best I could, I simply could not bring myself to say hi to her, drifting off into BS rationalizations like "Oh she is busy anyways right now" and "I will do it later". Ya well whatever!! I don't think I really believed it myself but at least I seemed to have reached a decision for now and could get back to enjoying myself here. Or at least try.

After all, there were thousands of other people and obsessing about anyone in particular seemed really unnecessary. But you know how it is if you've seen someone you dig^^

I tried letting her go as best I could for now and getting back to dancing and enjoying the day with my crew. A ton of situations were happening as these things go on a psychedelic playground - many people meeting each other, tons of enegrgies in the air of people communicating with one another in subtext, crazy scenes happening here and there, the Earth right underneath your bare feet and the music blasting, tingling your senses.

I went back to our day-tent by the main to take a sip of water as the sun was still burning relentlessly. SUN festival for sure!

I had my sunglasses on, stood there and took a large gulp of my water. And when I lowered the bottle - I kid you not - there was my stomping queen, standing a good 30 meters away from me, with her water bottle in her own hand that she was just lowering after a big gulp, looking straight ahead at me as I did at her. Like we were mirrors of each other, it was such a cosmic wink and I felt a rush of adrenaline coming over me.

Jesus universe, can you get any more pushy please?!

I didn't know what was more ridiculous - the amount of energy I invested resisting what I actually wanted, or the way the universe literally threw her at me in more and more obvious degrees of intensity...

To be continued...

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Murilo Ganesh Fotografo FB
S.U.N. Festival FB Page
Ozora Festival FB Page
unsplash.com}

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