As I played Final Fantasy VIII story I was moved with all sorts of emotions. One of the most relatable scenes is the one quoted here.
Squall is a complex well-written character, I get why some people would hate him, at first he seems the example of brooding/emo hero character. But the more I think about him the more I find him desperate for connection but afraid to try, his personality is cutely weak (despite being a great leader!) and surprisingly likable because of that.
Nothing that could hurt your enjoyment of the game.
I'll be first to admit I'm here because of other people.
But I'm fine by myself now. I have all the skills I need to survive. I'm not much of a child anymore.
That's a lie.
I don't know anything. I'm confused. I don't want to depend on anyone. How I can do that?
Someone tell me...
Someone? So I'll end up depending on people after all.
--- Squall - (Second Disk.)
"It hurts so much to love and then part away."
Because of his sad upbringing, squall was realist. Raised in a military school from young age, he learned everything about how to deal with fighting, he choose the hardest weapon to master the Gunblade. (which is actually a real thing) But he was never taught to be a person... Just a tool for mercenary use!
You see the quote above? That's what I think too sometimes!
I was just like him... Always thinking, rarely doing anything. I still made some achievements in my life, like... uh... I did some, OKAY?! But those were the times I acted first, thought later. Nothing went according to plan.
I don't really have 'real' friends, maybe one or two from college. But I have many people I care about, some I know personally in Libya, many are from steemit and other platforms on the internet. I care about them so much that it hurts me sometimes. That's why I'm afraid of having friends.
To be there to help you and care about you more than anything
I can't have a shallow friendship.
So I cut myself from the world, I missed so much but I was glad I never dragged anyone down. Only in recent years that started to change because I realized connections with people, even far away can benefit us both.
Both Squall & The Old Me Were Wrong
"I know.... But what?"
I said this already in my Lone Wolf post. You can do many things alone, and avoiding people because of fear is one of the saddest offenses you can do to yourself. I know that now, I know I must change. I will rely on people more. A recent experience made me realize that more than ever as I worked with @ddrfr33k to create this masterpiece. Squall is afraid from losing people, I
am was afraid of having friends and the pressure of letting them down can do to me.
we must fight our way through!!
"It's the only way we can move on."
Even squall changed through the course of FF8, he learned to depend on his friends more. Subtly, gradually. They helped him save the world. He might not be the best person. He might be a child in adult body like some people I know. Now, after he learned he can't fight alone, now he's truly the hero of his world.
I prefer Wolves.
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