I can't help it that I feel the need to speak my truth and refuse to put a filter on myself. That would be fake.. and whenever I say anything that seems to challenge someone, they just dump me like a rotten sack of potatoes.

I very much use to do the very same thing you are describing (challenging peoples opinions). I still do to an extent but the older I get the more I try and not speak out unless its truly needed.

Instead I just shake my head at those who spout out stuff just because it sounds good or because its the politically correct thing to say.

The more time that passes the more I realize most people prefer to be lied to if it means that lie is in line with their beliefs / statements they usually make. They don't want to be challenged and shown to be wrong. Many people seem to have the I'm right because I'm right syndrome so its pointless to debate with most.

I very much just want to get fucked up. I don't even know what is stopping me at this point.

As you said in your topic .....3 years sober .... being 3 years sober is a great reason for you not to get fucked up. Keep that 3 years rolling ..... Don't give up.