Growing Green Onions
Sometimes I really wonder what the point of existence is. With so much pain in the world, so much suffering. Collectively, we do it to ourselves, and the solution is so utterly simple to me, yet my perception seems to be a rare one.
Plants are like my family.
I soaked them all for an hour, and I gave each one a kiss, the reward that came upon me, is nothing short of bliss.
Much love,
@futuremind
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Life's not fair. And that would even be true in a fair world, the world I know you see so clearly and so many others seem to be unable to imagine... Life's not fair. Especially to those who have so much to give, to the point that they completely discount themselves when sharing every last bit they got... Life's not fair my friend, and as hollow as this may sound; you can only give so much, you're just one person. So don't engage in the unfair fight of just you against the world; the world, especially this unfair world, will always win that fight. And that sucks.
You do have a way with words though, and you know there's at least a couple of other lost souls who appreciate those words; I'm not the first to respond to this post. Sometimes being you is just enough, no need to take on the burden of all the sorrow this life has to offer, because sorrow will find you, even if you're not looking for it. I loved your response on that post of mine on war; you have a wisdom only you can have, like we all do, but unlike many others you're very skillful at conveying that wisdom, as proven again by this passionate post.
Just do you my friend, that's more than good enough. And once in a while just tell the world to go fuck itself, as someone else already suggested. I'm not you, can't think what you think nor feel what you feel and maybe all the advice in the world won't do any good now, but I hope you hang on and stay with us my friend. You're not alone. 🙏🏼
Thank you for the kind uplifting words my friend.
Sometimes a little apathy is not a bad thing I suppose. It might even be a necessity at times.
I often don't feel like I have much to offer in a materialistic world, but it's comforting to know I'm not alone with how I perceive things.
Everything is ever shifting, ever changing. Even with future oriented minds we cannot be sure what the future will bring.
Sometimes it is best to just be in the present moment.
Thank you @zyx066 🙏
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Stand tall as it sounds as if you overcome many things. I have similar views as you in life and agree that not many see things for what they are (Lots of self serving people out there but lots of kind people as well). Keep being you and keep fighting the good fight. I wish you nothing but the best.
It seems like everything I say or do is wrong. I try my best, I truly do. My best just isn't good enough for anyone.
I'm always the bad guy in the end, always the one who gets left behind.
Idk what to do anymore, and I wish I could just be ok with being utterly alone in life. I guess it's a weakness, but I think it's a normal human trait to not want to be alone.
Thank you for your kind and uplifting words. I'm trying my best, day to day.
Keep your head up man. It sounds like you have anxiety as I know people who have bad cases of it. I myself have a touch of it and it can be an SOB to deal with.
Don't let the demons win .... Wake up every morning look in the mirror and remind yourself of the good person that you are. I mean that in the literal sense. ... Look yourself in the mirror and say positive things about/to yourself. ... Ex. I'm a good person and todays going to be a good day. Send some positive vibes your own way. It may sound funny but It works.
I got this idea from a friends house I visited. They had some paper taped to their bathroom mirror that had a bunch of positive stuff written on it. It was positioned in such a way that anyone who went in to wash their hands would have to read it. I thought it was one of the coolest ideas I have ever seen to uplift people.
I really appreciate you taking the time to help with perspective.
I just can't shake the idea that if I was good, people wouldn't keep leaving me.
Yeah, anxiety and depression are rough. I'm very much fighting the urge to drink right now. I just don't see much point in anything anymore.
I'm not sure if the positive mirror thing would help. I very much love myself and believe I am a good person. I can't help it that I feel the need to speak my truth and refuse to put a filter on myself. That would be fake.. and whenever I say anything that seems to challenge someone, they just dump me like a rotten sack of potatoes. This is why I am so perplexed and feel I must be delusional or something. If I was good, I would not be abandoned and utterly alone in life.
Life is a trip man, and it hasn't been a great one. I very much just want to get fucked up. I don't even know what is stopping me at this point.
I very much use to do the very same thing you are describing (challenging peoples opinions). I still do to an extent but the older I get the more I try and not speak out unless its truly needed.
Instead I just shake my head at those who spout out stuff just because it sounds good or because its the politically correct thing to say.
The more time that passes the more I realize most people prefer to be lied to if it means that lie is in line with their beliefs / statements they usually make. They don't want to be challenged and shown to be wrong. Many people seem to have the I'm right because I'm right syndrome so its pointless to debate with most.
As you said in your topic .....3 years sober .... being 3 years sober is a great reason for you not to get fucked up. Keep that 3 years rolling ..... Don't give up.
Too much for me to take in, but I did not leave you because you never have me. The time this post authored, I was asleep, the bot voted you on my behalf, but I woke up the first thing to check if you post. Time now is 6:07am. When you stand alone, you feel you're alone because you stand yourself from the crowd. You're not alone, you have my love even when I am not around. Keep breathing and keep writing my friend.
#oc is not a tribe tag, preferably to stay at the front first five tag for visibility.
I really appreciate your kind words. It's nice to have some friends here that care.
I don't know what to do anymore, I'm just trying to stay positive, but I am very much not in a positive mood right now.
Thank you for the advice about the tag. I didn't know the placement affects the visibility.
Only the first five tag is searchable. Try it.
Don't know what to do? Pray. Even if someone who doesn't believe in God, when they sneeze they go to the doctor. There's an energy behind us all, that we could believe in.
Hi @futuremind, if this poem is about your feelings, I can see how much suffering is in your heart. Love does torture sometimes. But learn to always be strong. There is no problem that there is no way out ..if love only brings suffering, then you must dare to let go. Love others who love you. Being loved is more beautiful than loving. Have a nice day, sir.
The ones who claim to love me always leave me. So I do not know how to process that. I am loyal and do not leave the ones I love.
I am afraid to keep on loving, because I am tired of being hurt.
At this point, I am just trying to not become a bitter person.
I'm sorry my friend.
Thank you my friend.
Life is difficult. Life is Suffering. That is the first of four Noble Truth.
Learn to let go. Don't get attached to anything. Nothing can hurt you if you are not attached to them - people, things, emotions, feelings ...
You are not alone at all. We all deal with our demons in our own way.
Take is easy and have a great weekend. 😊
Thank you my friend Vince.
It is hard for me to love without attachment, and those that detach from me generally seem to hate me afterwards.
As a wise person once said to me:
"There is a fine line between love and hate."
I love myself, and I guess that's all that matters in this world.
I guess I'm definitely fighting some demons, because when I hurt the most, I end up hurting myself. I'm still fighting the good fight though, I think.
Thank you for your kind words my friend.
Have a great weekend as well.
Hi Jake. It is perfectly all right to love yourself. If anyone deserves our love, it is us ourselves. So, don't hurt yourself, if you love yourself. Be kind to yourself. Pamper yourself a bit. And the rest of the world can go and F themselves. 😊
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