Hello Wonderful Steemians!

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Okay! First thing first. I have to thanks @priyanarc to share her story, otherwise I would not know about this great "Question of the Week" engagement.

The question itself "How Do You Get Out And Stay Out Of An Emotional Hole?" made me a bit emotional. I am actually afraid to face the Hole again in my life. I managed to came out from the black hole, I survived. I am not sure if my tricks will work on someone or not. Actually there is no trick, to be honest. I am sharing my story to let you know more.

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I lost my Dad on 2010. It was the darkest, the hardest part of my life. I can not explain in words what he was to me, how our relationship was. In a word He was the whole world to me. So when I heard the news, I got shocked, I got freezed and I could not interact with anyone for hours. I was staying on my Hostel in another city that time and could not give this news to anyone. I literally mean it. I could not tell anyone My Dad is no more. I went to my home and took part in all the rituals But never let One drop of water from my eyes!

I was mad inside, I was getting angry with God! I could not take the truth that he was not anymore, I could not say him Goodbye, I could not accept that I am not able to see him again. I was depressed. I pretended for years that he is alive. And I was getting mentally sick.

After one years, I became to get normal, do all the normal life things and started a new life, tried to start a new life without my Dad. In the meanwhile what I used to do is MOTIVATING MYSELF TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH

This is the biggest thing I realized. I could not tolerate any other's word, I used to get angry who try to motivate me or show me compassion. Even I could not talk about my Dad with my Mom. I am not sure if you are getting me, what I am trying to express. Coz it's so wired, I understand. It's hard to believe such situation if you never gone through this.

I used to tell myself repetitively this thing-

Make yourself strong.
Don't depend on others.
Live your life.
Don't regret for anything.
Everything is part of our life.
deal with everything in your own way.
You can not get what is gone, but you can create your own way.
This is your life, don't waste it. make it beautiful.

If you go through my blog you will see my blog is also full of motivation. This is the actual reason behind it. I still does not talk about my Dad with anyone except my Husband. This is the first time I am expressing my thought! But yeah, I am feeling lot more better now a days. I am surely out of the hole. But as you can understand the occurrence will always hurt me inside.

Life is a strange journey. It takes away so many things from us and came back with even lot more other things. I have a loving Husband and a two years old son. I am truly blessed.

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There is nothing to regret. I realized we have to keep our journey and we will certainly find lot more things in our life through this journey. Try out all the way you know to feel better, get help if necessary. Living a healthy life, with good environment, positive thinking can help you fight with any thing. But don't waste time. You will regret it later. Life is wonderful, enjoy it.

THANKS FOR READING

If you are interested to answer this question and want to share your story, you can read this more more detail-
ecoTrain Question Of The Week: How Do You Get Out And Stay Out Of An Emotional Hole?

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