Open late night letter to @roelandp - Forlorn
shla-rafia1:53 AM
i just had to leave the dorm because the kids in there said to the receptionist that I asked them for money outside. i was in the shower at 1 o clock and they didn't tell me anything. the receptionist came up and said that i have to change the room and when i asked she and everyone didn't say anything. now she said that this was maybe my last night here. it could have been that i asked for money. i 95 percent don't do it. or 98. I
just wanted to tell you that so u will understand my mood. I am so sad. Not only about that. mostly about that i could not get a witness with dani and people who came after me could do these things. now i cannot blog and make a lot. my advantage of reading has vanished. and what is this for a group where a member who really wants to do something and makes 30 a day while telling dozens of people a day about steem does not get 300 euro for a room together while he walks outside in winter. i then think that they don't deserve me and want to go again. i think that you know what i mean because you are impulsive and good positive thinking and rational risky with good human knowledge and not so boring and cold hearted.
I cannot anymore and now also have body problems with teeth and foot. Imagine what I could have built since 2013. so i left crypto in january and sold everything. i saw steem but there is this mentality i want you to ask about. that's why i am writing. why does nobody give me upvotes and support for a cheap steem house with soup or anything. is this a special mentality i don't understand? the first thing i would do is support a guy like me and se what happens! i don't think you are like that.
i hit the send button too early. i will post this as an open letter between you and me maybe. I should have used space after a few sentences sry
- shla-rafia2:07 AM or i just go to bed, thank you for listening!
Hi M,
sorry to hear that you might have got kicked out of the dorm / hostel. Please don't give up on Steem, I'm sorry not all of your posts got onto the trending page, but I think that is the same fact for many more people here.
I'm sure there is not some "special mentality" here. I also don't know what you mean about 'get a witness' with dani. I also generally don't see myself as a risk taker (also not rational :D) but I think many more people ain't that cold-hearted as you had seen yourself on SteemFest late November.
About upvotes and such: some people have the voting bots behind them, others not. I can't tell how that works... I do know I really like you and also during SteemFest I remembered telling you it would be best to blog about your life experiences beyond telling that you are promoting Steem :)
Btw I noticed that Hostelworld has quite an extensive range of hostels and dorms, also some rated at 7 EUR / night. I found this Flying Pig Hostel in Noordwijk, which might be nice for a couple of days to get some fresh air at the Beach?
http://www.hostelworld.com/search?search_keywords=Amsterdam%2C+Netherlands&country=Netherlands&city=Amsterdam&date_from=2017-01-31&date_to=2017-02-01&number_of_guests=1&sort=price&prevSort=price
Ps I noticed you pay hard earned steem money to Streemian. Which is a great service and @xeroc, don't get me wrong, but let me know what service you are paying Streemian for and maybe I can set it up for free for you (exclusive) on my server.
Additionally I found this re: medical care for you in Amsterdam: http://veldwerkamsterdam.nl/?page_id=302
I researched and called some to crosscheck about medical support: You could go to the 'Kruispost' on Ouwezijdse Voorburgwal 129 for walk-up checks on your teeth & toes... Open on monday - friday:
I really hope you can use the donation on your fundraiser and get some more in as well!
Btw. did you think about a raspberry pi as a new computer? They are really tiny and cheap. You can run it with ubuntu (free) and the new versions have wifi.
Hang in there Shla!
Ok, good that you answered. I feel already better because @karenmckersie talked to me and now you. I went to the Kruispost. They only take out teeth for free and told me that there is only one place where it is cheap called ACTA. I have almost no power to go there. Money for TRAM everything and the fear that it will be unfruitful. Could you call there I have no money on the phone. http://www.acta.nl/en/
Will check the insurance now.
I am just fucked. Low executive functions and don't know anymore what to do first. Low money. We could be a place here where we actively help people like me to rent a little soup kitchen and promote STEEM at the same time but there is no spirit for that which I find sad. With the delegate thing I mean that liondani once offered me to manage a delegate and I also paid for registration. Then I didn't get enough votes. Was called martin-38ptswarrior-raum
And bitshares didn't succeed. But we all did our part. Me in advertising to thousands of people (I got 50000 Brownie Points from @dan but that's not the same as having an income from a delegate/witness. So we all did our best and what I don't like is that many made so much money with STEEM and it would be nice if they would come together and help me to make a business. Like that "we feeling". I should have not analized, make statement about your personality sorry, I hope you understand what I mean with warm hearted.
You know I made new users in a time where dan or bytemaster said that one new user costs 100 dollar. Talking to all sorts of people a day I must have made an impact in bitshares popularity. I repeat myself. :/ I was very down yesterday, thanks again.
P.S: I like to pay for streemian and want to be suceesful here so that I can afford it for a long time. I cannot do it without money, my family doesn't give me any and is poor.
yes I thought about a raspberry pi. I have a input output errors on may netbook and its 100 percent bugged.
Will search it now.
OK, I am back, I just wrote ACTA an email!
They didn't even write anything back, only a link to Kruispost. That's what gets me down, it took me a lot of power to write ACTA and now I am back where I was before.
It sounds like you have no work , is there no work available where you live ? Perhaps you can get aid from welfare of some sort untill work picks up ?! Most of us have little money on steemit and unless your a whale our upvotes are not worth much ! Welfare should be able to help you find a place as well . Good luck to you and I wish I could help but im about to be laid off and im barely surviving myself , dont give up and steem on !👍
Of course there is work. I could get a job easily. To keep it is the problem because I am a high-sensitive person which makes me leave sooner or later that's why I prefer to work alone or be the boss.
Welfare is humiliating and as well as homeless shelters. I followed @dantheman because of his idea to make the government irrelevant. Good luck to you also, thanks.
Just trying to help as you said you were kicked out of the dorm ! Im not sure what a dorm is , i assumed it was a shelter of some sort ! Hope things get better for you and your life changes , best of luck to you ! 👍😉
Oh a dormitory bed in a hostel is a room with bunk beds and 10 or so people sleep inside. The difference between a shelter is that you do not have to give your wallet and dignity to them at the "reception". I just got a new room. I always hate when people instrumentalize others to reach their goals. The others in the room were amused and laughing because their plan worked. They did not like someone and successfully made him change is room. They are 18 or 20 and likely students from rich people who never had to move a finger to make money.
Thanks ! We have hostils here as well ! Im glad you found a room ! 👍😉
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