Somehow, I felt I needed to write to you and pray for you as you move forward. If you do decide to travel, please seek out other Christians. We attend a Calvary Chapel. You would feel right at home there. Many of the pastors have had substance abuse in their past, so will know what you are dealing with. It's a place where you will feel right at home, I am sure. We have attended many different denominations, so I know God has those for a reason. We are not all the same, although all one in Him. We have been with Calvary Chapel for about 6 years now, and feel we have found our place where we really fit in God's family. We do get a lot of people like you passing through. God Bless!