I Had fear of Death until i smoked DMT

in challenge30days •  5 months ago



As most of you may know who follow my blog there are two things in my life that i am into.....art and spirituality. I am avid artist and i consider myself a lover of all artistic expression. My spirituality (not religion) is pure in that it is my own, although i have used guides such as Buddhism and Numerology as a jumping point to reach my own understanding of life and death.

This is my trip report of an experience i had last year while smoking a form of DMT known as "Changa".

What is DMT?

For who ever might not know what DMT is..i'm not going to go into a deep explanation. Simply put, DMT (diemethlytryptamine) is a naturally occuring psychedelic compound that is found in nature such as trees, grass, and root bark. DMT can also be found in the human body, and it is used by your body during REM sleep cycles to keep your brain active. Which is why our dreams can seem very surreal...every night when everyone goes to sleep, we have a mild psychedelic trip. DMT has also been used for thousands of years in ancient cultures as a spiritual practice.

If you want to learn more about what DMT does and is check out this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6RBOIgtzEE

What is Changa?

Changa is a blend of different herbs mixed in with the grass, root bark or leaves that contain the DMT molecule. Changa is usually smoked in a bowl or a gravity bong and the experience you will have lasts about 15 to 20 minutes.

My experience

Initially my wife was with me and i had video recorded the entire experience with my iPhone but somehow i lost the video because my iPhone crashed. I was very upset because this experience is hard to recap with words but i will try my best to paint a picture for you.

My changa was mixed with dmt, passion flower, and calea zacatechichi aka "the dream herb"....first I filled my bowl with a little bit of cannabis, just a pinch so i could cover the hole...then on top of that i packed about 100mg of changa.

It is recommended that when you smoke DMT, that you take the longest hardest pull you possibly can on the bowl, and then hold in the smoke as long as you can, then exhale...

I sat in my computer chair at my desk, nervous as fuck about what i was getting ready to willfully put myself though. I had heard all the stories about people smoking DMT and being sent to a parallel universe or some kind of other dimension. The idea was intriguing, but also extremely scary.

My wife turned on the video recording......i looked at her, took a deep breath and i lit the bowl and took the hugest hit i possibly fuckin' could from it (and i have asthma so it wasn't easy). The changa smelled like shit, a very pungent smell...but i held that smoke in as long as i could. When i exhaled i could already feel the changa starting to work on my brain, but i knew i still need another hit or maybe 2.

I lit the bowl back up and again took a deep inhale and held the smoke in as long as i possibly could. Yo...before i could even get the exhale completely out of my body i felt something....something like a jolt of lightning shooting up my spine and right into my brain.

AND BOOM!!!!

Dudes and Dudettes i kid you not, i don't know what the fuck was happening to me but my entire body went into a convulsive state. I was shaking uncontrollably and everything in the entire room was shimmering and spinning around, i felt like i was spinning but i was sitting right there. I felt like i was being sent through a biological vortex of some kknd... I could not control anything that was happening, which normally i would not have liked... but "I" ceased to exist in this moment, "I" which is my own ego was not even fully aware of what was happening....It almost felt good to give in to a power that was stronger than me, it felt good to let go completely and have something take control over me,..it felt fucking GOOD...

All of this happened in about 15 seconds of time..but it felt like an eternity....and the next thing i knew.....i was home.

Home...it's hard to explain what this shit felt like and what i managed to gather while i was there. I felt removed from my body completely, i didn't even have a thought of being in a body or being a person. I felt alien.....All i could see were blue orbs of light surround me in every direction. But the light was not stationary, it was organic..it was alive some how.

The light looked like something out of a fantasy novel, shaped like how human eyes are shaped..except these orbs of light were gigantic..and they were radiating a hum and making a sound. A sound i could not even try to re-create for you. I felt amazed at what i was seeing, and that somehow the blue orbs were able to communicate to me without having to use any words.

They told me "Welcome Home"

I wasn't scared either, it felt like home....its so hard to put this into words, and i've never tried before. But it felt so close to home that i didn't want to leave from this place. And the whole time the energy..the blue orbs were communicating with me, things about life and death.

My wife was recording the entire thing, and she was trying to ask me questions (which i found out afterward), but i couldn't even hear her. it's like i wasn't even there in my actual body anymore.

Suddenly, everything kind of cleared up..gradually but almost instantaneously which was weird....it seemed like i was only gone for a few seconds, maybe 1 minute...but it had been 15 minutes!!! Still being recorded, it's like i came out of it already talking and saying shit about what i saw.....i started to talk about life and death. And how as people we do not know what is really out there...but there is SOMETHING. Death was only a passage way into another form of life, and i felt compelled to feel this way..it was heavy on me. Death has always been something i have not appreciated, for obvious reasons.

But after this trip man.......death has become for me something i look at with an open and clear mind. it is something that i welcome into my life, because i know it is coming whether it is welcome or not. Death is something we all have to be comfortable with, and for a long time i wasn't. This trip was so mind blowing man, i can't even begin to express how much it did for me and what its done for me and my out look on life and spirituality. Since then i've even written a song about my experience with changa the name of the song is called "changa chunga" and i am going to be releasing that soon.

This is part of the reason why i advocate psychedelic medicine so much, there are parts of our mind that are so untapped..and we have no idea of the potential that lies within. I am not sure when my next DMT trip will be, but probably real soon..next time i will make sure to save the video and post it up for you guys though.

If anyone is thinking about doin DMT, remember do your research first..make sure you are ready for something like this. It is a life changing experience, and your mind should be in a good state when you do this..so just be sure you are ready. Thanks for reading this blog, peace and bliss everyone!




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Well, when you do DMT correctly, you essentially experience death. Well hypothetically.

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@matt-a yes!!

and it felt fucking GOOD

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BBL. Going to kill self now.

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@matt-a lmaoooo noooO!!!

As a fellow cosmic self, I ask only to extend your ruminations...does love transfer over to the afterlife? Does fear?
And if psychedelic synthetic chemical intake via lung absorption vs. biomechanically regulated pineal gland natural release allows a glmpse to the spirit realm, does one become a 'new' being?

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i believe love transcends all dimensions of existence.... fear i am not so sure of, but love is something i feel the universe is "made out of" ..hard coded into the dna of the universe. I feel like fear is a human emotion....love ...is not even an emotion, it is...just is...

And i am not sure i would call changa synthetic..it is not compounded in a lab. everything in changa is naturally occuring..

now if were talking about 5-meo-dmt, then i'd have to say..im not sure about the new being thing.

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Changa is naturally occurring? Thanks for the info. Sending ❤️🕉🙏🏽
Just checking you out;) . Just followed.

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changa is only a mixture of herbs and roots, so yes it is natural :D

Yea that sounds like less than a breakthrough dosage unfortunately... When i use about 50mg in a proper piece, feels like I'm gone for months.

Don't b afraid, your spirit guide will find you and keep you safe on your journey!

WOW Man!!! That is absolutely ridic! My dad and I will take DMT some day when I am older, so it's cool I have another thing in common with you!

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Funny that you mention that. Your dad sounds like a pretty cool guy. Heh.

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Check him out @theprophet!

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Oh! Hahaha. That's convenient. I'll take a look. ^^

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bro..a young man like yourself i know will appreciate the experience immensely!

and to be able to do it with your father? that my friend is a huge HUGE blessing! We do have much in common and i'm sure there will be much more bro,

age means nothing, when the mind is alike!

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Amen, I wish I had such a dad :)

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Well.. he did shrooms once, and pot a few times, pretty good tbh :)

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Hahahaa. 😁 @rondonson has def inculcated an idea into us 'cause I want to try DMT so bad now...open up that Third Eye and see things beyond average reasoning

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Hell yeah!

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@trillex yes bro...yes we all need to scrape off the dust from our pineal gland every once in a while...

this world shades it over too much.

Wow, incredible - thanks for sharing your experience. I've been researching DMT for spiritual purposes for a while and what you reported was fascinating.
The beings welcomed you and death doesn't seem so scary after all because you have already lived and are welcomed home.

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exactly bro.... it is the most crazy feeling to give into a power that is stronger than you and NOT BE SCARED OF IT!

that stuff took a hold of me and i didnt give a shit man....i let it take me , and when it did...it was all good!

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Yes, it's the ego death, being one with the cosmos.
Thanks for sharing this, it's good to know that you should let go of the control and just let the overwhelming power take over.

here i share my experience on darkness retreat ..Blessings
https://steemit.com/health/@cherie/darkness-retreat-vedics-most-powerful-meditation

That is interesting! Most people are scared of dying, but it would be funny if after we die we'd go there and be thinking - Damn, if I knew it was like this I would have come a lot sooner-lol!

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@silver-saver hahahahahah

i always have this kind of thought! its true too...who knows that shit might be the best thing since sliced bread..i guess we ALL will see!

Go on Youtube and watch Joe Rogans Radio play on DMT
I didn't even know it existed until I heard him talk about it.
I have never tried and probably will not.
But I am very interested on the whole new perception of life
Like I promote searching this untapped mindset to a T!

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Yeah i put that link to joe rogan in the post.

Dude this is where its at and im glad this post is reaching like minded people

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oh crap, I didn't even look at the links haha
I'm gonna watch it again then!

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hahah no doubt bro! joe rogan is the man!!

Wauw, so nice... My single trip was pure DMT and there was just nothing, blackness, some virtual space, I remember mumbling everything is digital, just an illusion. Not at all what I expected eventhough I didn't expect anything but not this. I'd really want some answers, so maybe next time I'm going to pray and meditate first.

Man you just help raise so many people's vibrations with this post my friend. I know its not always easy sharing personal experiences. This one definitively helped out a bunch :)

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Dude, that was exactly what my intention was too...to reach people this way, Law of attraction bro, you get back what you put out!

thanks for reading my bro!

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exactly my brother exactly and glad you achieved your intention. and of course always love reading your stuff. keep doing great things

Wow! What an experience! You should definitely check out Carlos Castanedas books if you haven't already. He's talking a lot about stories like this.

Changa is used in many shamanic rituals. The shamans say you see the spirits and the spirit world when you smoke it.

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@fenom3n yes the shamans are correct...

ive always felt called to the shaman way of life. I may go on a retreat myself some day to become one.

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Another shaman drink is the milky way... if you don't know about it it's a THC based drink used to heal many deseases including cancer... you can make it using 3 liters of milk and about a bag of hemp of if legal in your country cannabis. You take the hemp or cannabis(depending on the case) and boil it in the milk at low fire for 1 hour or 1h and 1/2 after you remove the herb content and drink 250ml of the shamanic drink commonley known as milky way... it's used to heal cancer, depression, insomnia, epilepsy and many other mental and physical deseases. Boiling the hemp at low fire for 1 hour and a half maximum always did the trick for me... you can use it to heal or just to get in touch with the spirits... you need more hemp than weed if you make it with hemp. Remember to stir the content throughout the whole process... The effect lasts 4-8 hours.I hope this info helps you on your jurney to becomeing a shaman... use only the leaves of the female plant or buds if you are using cannabis. I myself make it atleast once a year and have cured my friends cancer using herb and the drink. Another shaman recipe for seeing spirits is eating about 3g (a light dose) 5g (a moderate dose) or 10g + (don't go over 12G I recommend) of morning glory heavenly blue seeds. You will have a life changing spiritual experience. Remember to have a lemon with you when using morning glory since the seeds do cause some nausea... the experience will last up to 10 hours and they are a natural anti-depressive. The morning glory seeds are legal, remember to chew them well do not swallow them whole. You can buy them at almost any gardening shop. Enjoy your journey to become a shaman.

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are you a shaman?? how do you know these things.

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I've been learning from elder friends since i was 12(now i am 27) and i was always fascinated with biology. I even got into biotech collage for 1 semester untill i quit it due to a depression after my mother died and i broke up with my fiancee 1 to 2 months after that after a 7 year relationship. Beeing fascinated with plants i learned a thing or two about the drugs i use and i was always careful using them... if you chose the path in life with drugs be sure you know what you are doing . What plants you use and use them in doses that do good. Another plant that puts you in the spirit realm is datura. 1 bottle cap of seeds will make you see the spirits for 12 hours or at least that's what the elders in Romania say... datura is also legal yet don't take more than the dose i recommended because it can kill you the
atropine in them can make your heart stop. I do consider making the milky way a yearly ritual now. I do not consider myself a shaman yet i know some shamanic rituals... the most important thing in all of the shamanistic way is use love when making your medicine or you will anger the spirits. Talking to the potions while making them and sending good vibes to the potion is also a very important step. Here's a good site to document yourself about the doses and effects of drugs www.erowid.org

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@fenom3n thank you for you amazing reply.... i am sorry for the losses you have had, i completely understand. Loss seems to be another common attribute among people who feel called to this lifestyle. Ive always been fascinated with plants, and higher spirituality....i know datura as well, i havent done it but i know about it, I know a lot about a lot of these things but i just never had any guidance. Im familiar with erowid as wel....i've done ALOT of studying.. I really would like to meet and talk to a shaman....it is something that ive been heading towards for some time now, i know it is going to happen really soon.

My whole life all i have ever wanted to do was help people...but i never knew how i would or what direction id go in to fulfill that feeling. But in the last few years ive felt called to the shamanic way of life. I'd like to hear more from you, so i followed you..please, do the same. Thank you so much.

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I've always tried to do good in life to anyone also... If you do want to be a shaman and do good remember you must do good in any way you can... it's part of the shaman way of life. Maby one day i will post about my spiritual experiences and the potions i know how to make... yet for now i focus on my poetry and maby soon on my painting(about following me) i hope you like what you read on my blog if you do it.

That's so crazy. I've heard of DMT before, some pals of mine tried it out and had a pretty similar experience. Ever since I've been curious to try it out but just haven't had a chance.

Anyways, this was a really cool blog. Followed.

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@grocko thanks for reading man!

Very interesting. Thanks for sharing.

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you are very welcome!

Awesome experience! Nice of you to share.

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thank you for checking it out....

hopefully i can get some video up next time

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There is nothing to fear but fear itself, I have intentionally faced all mine and now, it is all good! Death is life and life is death... it is all the same to me.

thank you for sharing!
I have smoked pot most of my life. and I have used coke,meth,and shrooms on occasion ,but I have never done acid or hallucinogenics ,other than a time I smoked a Joint that was laced ,and didn't know it.... had a bad trip and that has kept me away from them.
I have heard of DMT,and Ayahuasca,watched some vids,and done some reading on them. I would like to try them both,but I know that it is important to have some one who knows what it is about and has some experience ,...once bitten twice shy!..
namaste

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@jesse2you hey man im sorry to hear about your experience having a bad trip. But i will tell you this, it was likely you smoked angel dust and not a hallucinogenic compound, if you smoked it and had terrible experience....its known to happen with pot.

i think its dope you want to try dmt though, go for it man. let u know how it turns out

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when and if I do will try and remember to let you know how it goes!
my memory is kinda shattered!..lol :-)
hope you have a great day!
namaste!

Omg, thanks for sharing this wild experience! Followed and upvoted!

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thank you for reading! this was a very VERY wild experience, but i know there is so much more to learn from DMT..i will be doing it again soon

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Please let us know what happens, haha :D

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i will be recording my next sessions and im not losing the video this time! haha

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Oh my, can't wait to see that :0

wow amazing...! i like your content keep posting stuff like this, i followed and upvoted
your post and please also upvote and follow me @wicky or click on image. i need more followers
can u please help me to get more followers i am new here? thanks

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Wow this amazing ! I wish to get my hands on this someday.

Be grateful for what happened, keep the spirit and keep on step trying to do the best in life

Yea give me some of that on my deathbed for sure.

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Thank you for sharing! Amazing story :)

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@sadyena , you are very welcome :D

They say if you smoke cannabis and do DMT it makes you want to stop taking illegal substances and may put you on the right track. Incredibly intriguing drug and your story has made me want to give it a shot!

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@mystifact i think you should try it!

Wow man very inspirational

thank you for sharing

Dude great post as always .. have you read the book by Rick Strassman .. DMT the spirit molecule? On a separate note have you tried Ayahuasca? if not it's like a slow release DMT (with other plants) and an mao inhibitor so you can take it orally (your stomach usually destroys DMT) .. but don't use the packs the head shops are selling .. head out to a retreat in the jungle. Also if you ever know anyone that's sick or in pain get them to try Kambo frog medicine..

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Changa is like a smokeable version of ayahausca..

there are MAOI's in it already....

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Hello my friend yes MAOI (I should have double checked lol) I didn't realise Changa contained it so thanks for the info .. I have partaken several times in the past and yes your right .. it's just that the ayahausca seems to last far longer (a good few hours), I suppose because it's taken orally. I loved the changa when I did it, within a minute I was holding hands with a beautiful spectral goddess, hair flowing as if in a breeze. It felt like she was leading me off into infinity whilst telling not to worry and go with it and that I was loved here. I kind of remember thinking she felt like the spirit of Mother nature, but it was a long time ago and the memory is hazy. My friends asked me who I was holding hands with when I came back lol .. Great post and thanks for stirring that memory.

I LOVE DMT ... i smoked it for a whole week nonstop after i took Ayahuasca in a ceremony .
but the best for me , i found out is darkness retreat ..the pineal gland is SO activated ..
i do one month and i water fast while doing it , it is just AWSOME ..you would love it ! Psychonaut brother :)

I watch horror films by covering my face with my hands, through my ajar fingers - and here it is, now I will not sleep at night. Thank you

I've watched a few videos on dmt. Always been fascinated by it. Is it addictive? Not in the heroine or nicotine sense, but in a marijuana sense. I've never physically been addicted to marijuana, but I want it at times for the feeling it gives. Will you do it again or was it a once is enough kind thing? I'm guessing it's not something you'd do weekly. I'm definitely following you, I love stories like this. If you do it again, make sure to video and make a blog post with it. Lol. Cool story!

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least addictive thing ever imo...gives instant respect for it and oneself, on the subject of how often i personally smoke some about every year or so really gives perspective on where your at and where you need to be.

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Good to know. Do you think it plays off your emotions or current state? Like if you're in a bad place in life and mad or sad, will it accentuate it?

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i dont think thats completely true for DMT, because you kind of remove yourself from human attachment and emotions....

but still, i wouldnt try it if i was in a bad state mentally or emotionally just because my experience with psychedelic medicines tells me i shouldnt..

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Got it. Thanks for the info!! Please tag me if you ever get that video posted. Lol

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100% if your not in a good place i recommend not doing it....but on the inverse it can actually make you process it all real quick...i have watched friends who have done in a bad mental state and watched them process 5years of stress and hurt in 10mins on DMT...so really its all in the hands of the person using it. I recommend watching a movie called "Spirit Molecule" amazing film captures the essence of DMT really well.
good questions to man :)

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@queeneleanor

hey, no it is not addictive at all....in fact i think any body would WANT to space out the time they do it, because it is so intense....

But no it is not addictive at all. I havent done it for a year after this experience.. It is something i would want to do probably once every couple of months, because one experience is enough to think about for a while. I will make sure to post a video next time haha..im so mad i lost the one i had, i was talkin some shit! haha thanksfor reading man

I always thought I wouldn't really want to trip any more and then I did some low-dose shroom and LSD (what I was told was if it was idk i didn't test) experiments. I enjoyed that at the time but then again, I did feel a little unhinged afterwards.

Like you said, proceed with caution. It's been like 1.5 years or more since my last psychedelic experience. I don't feel like a "never again" stance like I did before. more like "set and setting."

Thanks for sharing your challenge30days bud :)

Thanks for the fantastic share! I have never done changa before due to my asthma. I need to either pharmahuasca or something really clean or I'll be wheezing for the next few days.

Thanks for sharing your journey. I've never had a psychedelic experience, but I've heard that it's one of the best ways for people to prepare for the end of their physical being. There's even medical research supporting this claim. A lot of veterans with PTSD are finding relief through ayahuasca ceremonies, and I'm interested in exploring that angle myself.

Have you ever seen the documentary about Sasha Shulgin called "Dirty Pictures"? It changed the way I look at life.

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hey there, your welcome!

Yes, in this new age ayahausca is being used to treat a lot of things, and so are mushrooms... and hey..changa is like a smokeable form of ayahausca, because it has the MAOI's that make it orally active.

I have no seen that documentary but i will definitely check it out. Is this Alexander Shulgin? i know who he is, great chemist!

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Same guy! It's a great film. The University of Arkansas Medical School department of neurology sponsored a screening of it at the Hot Springs Documentary Film Festival many, many years ago. Talk about a paradigm shift....I grew up in the 80's with all the trappings of Nancy Reagan's propaganda, and now there were doctors of medicine and chemistry who were studying legitimate pharmaceutical applications of a drug I'd been taught would eat holes in your brain and make your spinal fluid drain out.