I saw a documentary on Netflix  fat sick and nearly dead   The titles describe movies but are also about  juicing

I thought I would write about my food challenges

when a had my depression a Called it by name is was a: Rulle kake Depression

or "Swiss roll" the cake comes from central Europe. around 1900

was popular in Norway 1950-1990.  very good super fast to make  almost like a sponge cake

anyway.

I have always been a thin man, but a got s  small stomach (beer belly or Swiss Roll belly) 

I had a depression for many years had different solutions to tackle my feelings over the years but the one a always fell back on is the Swiss Rull cake. 

So back in 2014 a normal day for me was go to work 8am.

 then so stress and angry and sad a good mix whit all of them.

 so did not eat any food before going home then 7 pm 

going to the store on the way home, but a was worn down so did not know where I was. so a just got a swiss cake or something like it. eat all of it alone the next day and do the same. 

a think food and mental health go hand in hand its the same as drugs and other destructive self-medication addictions. 

 semlor Swedish wheat buns with marzipan content 

not relevant but lacking a picture. btw this is very good one if u can find one its  "fastelaven"

7 weeks before Easter in most of Scandinavia Norway has a bit more boring one.. anyway.

am not depressed longer. but am still comfort eating 

 when something "old feelings or just a  day bad" 

a going back to eating a lot of wrong food here in canada a like one box of orios or 

7 leaf of  bread whit Peanut butter and jams. 

but if a had a god bike ride or a good day am making good food. 

when a was depressed there was no way out. I remember at work my colleagues start comment on my stomach

it was like getting  hit me in the face its not like a  was not aware that I gain weight. 

I see eating as a form of self harm. its just it's slower way of doing it. 

I expect that most people realize that many  people  do not choose to over eating.  It is true that there is a choice but it is in the same category as stop and smoke or drugs. its super hard. 

making good food it super hard when u are hate yourself.

and if u live a alone nobody is there to stop you.

Kvæfjord Cake voted Norway's best cake 

In my journey I have been 1000 times better then  2 years ago.

but this one is a hard one to stop.  last year back in norway a did a lot of good work I lost weight.

I had a deal to not eat sugar when I was home but a  could eat something at work.

I had a list of what I ate.  if a  i ate something  wrong 

source

It was a very hard job. but a managed it for about 6 months 

a did easy off whit the shame part. am bean doing  vegetable smoothie  every day  fore 1 year or "almost"

 am pre making them in bags frozen. 

if u dont like  pulp in the smoothie this is not fore u. 

 am a barke atm  but a hope when stuff is settling down here more a can go back to my shame list. lol.  a Ned the rest of my life to work before a can do it 100%.  

my smoothie I have tried many combinations. this one the best I think

I make about 10-12 stk

about 200-250 grams 

zipper lock bags is the best

About 1 kg of carrots

3 oranges  or 1 mango

1 broccoli

200-300 grams of pea

ca 500 grams of spinach

3 bananas

100-200 grams blueberry

 a small ginger just a small snippet like half cm brick

cut the carrots small and. put about the same amount in each bag and freezer it

take one out to put 2-3 dl apple juice 

'I have found that a handblender is the best. 

ready for freezing

this is one of the best way to get some green in u without a lot of work.