There Is A Pizzagate Near You
Pizzagate is real...
A picture I painted in my early 30s about my sexual, mental, and physical abuse by my stepfather and family. I didn't forget but I never told anyone about my abuse except my mother when I was 17. She said the abuse I suffered was my fault, that is what my stepfather told her and everyone in my family. Later my story told by the perpetrator and his enablers was my abuse never happened. I was as the corporate news labels alternatives to the fake reality they spin, " a Conspiracy Theorist."
My family abandoned me as a child and as an adult just like our government and institutions abandoned the people they are supposed to serve. We all suffer from betrayal trauma from our government, leaders, and authority who betray us and also by those who enable abusive authority.
When I found out by my own intuition that the conditioning I received as a child was causing me and my family suffering I went into therapy and on medication for anxiety and panic attacks. Both only treated symptoms not the actual conditioning itself. I couldn't figure out how to let my past go until I found a book on Buddhism and what the Buddha taught. That was the beginning of my healing adventures.
We all need to go on healing adventures because the world we live in is trauma conditioning all of us, which narrows our ability to see reality as it is, instead we see a made up reality of our conditioning.
I wrote this comment in response to @matrixdwellers post link
"Growing up I knew a bunch of pedophiles, one of them was my stepfather. Dirty minded men looking for fresh meat and the enabling wives who either were active or enabled by turning a blind eye....they were on the school board or in the churches (easy access to kids) and their ilk cut across the social strata, I was hunted by several older men of high ranking in my town. My stepfather protected me for his own use, several fights broke out when the men would start calling me at my home, I was 12 or 13 at the time. The perverts liked to hunt teen babysitters too. By the time I was babysitting I knew how to fight them. Also around 12 years old I was sent to a foster home because I started saying no to my stepfather and he would beat the crap out of me, we got in some knockdown drag out fights.
Crazy thing is my foster home had a pervert son in his early 20s I had to fight off....the world has never been a safe place....scratch the surface of this illusion and you find all sorts of monsters one reads about in fiction books."
Pizzagate The Conspiracy Theory labeling spin...
Another level to molesting children, rape, and porn, it is trauma conditioning, especially if there is violence involved...this trauma conditioning happens in our entertainment and news as well, just watching this type of activity traumatizes and conditions the mind. We become easy targets for more types of manipulation by preditors and I am not talking about sexual preditors. Our governments, corporations, and institutions are using the media and education system to trauma bond the citizens they are supposed to serve and protect to abusive authority.
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One has to consider the affect that Hollywood and other influential bodies have on the masses in relation to human conditioning. I strongly believe that--for the most part--human behaviour is learned, not created.
It's hard for me to foresee a man growing up in the forest, without any corrupting influences, and ending up a paedophile or abuser of some kind. Most think that we need to be taught how to be a good person, but I have always believed that we need to be taught how to be a bad person.
Compassion is instinctive in humans. We know what is right and what is wrong through our own experiences of how we want to be treated. I feel it is merely the plethora of corrupting stimuli that we are subjected to on a daily basis that results in us being desensitized, chipping away at our compassion and convincing us that humans are inherently bad and so it is okay for us to be too.
If it is these forces that are leading the world of men into dark and disturbing places, then we ought to consider whether that is actually the intent, or a bi-product of a less sinister, but equally harmful agenda.
I know it does not mean much, but I'm sorry for what happened to you. You should be proud that you were able to make it out the other side of what sounds like a very dark time in your life. Not everyone has that strength of character.
Thank you, I aprecciate your thoughtful response, I see all of us suffering to some degree the betrayal I suffered as a child. That's how I can see abusers without hating them. Many identified with those that abused them. I was taught we are born through our past intentions, it's our karma in a way, whether through past lives or the actions and intentions we manifest throughout our day.
I had 4 children, they were born without good or bad traits, but they all had certain proclivities that need to be cultivated correctly or their talents or characteristics can turn destructive. All my kids are kind and caring, I didn't pass on my conditioning!
I am glad that you are overcoming it..or you probably have already. Breaks my heart to learn it ever happening. Justice might not come to those who have suffered, but i am hoping that one day these will all stop. I hope too that there is a safe place for them to go to and be healed.
Edit, I am out of the dark cave, went through the dark woods and adjusting to bright sunlight ;-)...I think the only way this behavior will stop is through education and healing modalities that deal with deep rooted conditioning. When our Sexuality is abused it becomes a core trauma, when used as a trauma conditioning tool it plants seeds that go the the core of our base behavior programming. Kinda like a root type hack in a computer system...am I using the right technical analogy?
This type of conditioning is used in warfare all the time, rape and pillage ....In Africa whole nations have been broken by the rape and white sex trade culture. On a global scale we are a very psychologically troubled species.
I used to rescue hunting dogs who were abused and saw abused horses act just like us humans. I think the whole of humanity is suffering from varies levels of abuse through trauma betrayal and bonding.
It is a cycle so education and healing modalities are the way forward...in some places. I failed my computer subjects ;)
In many ancient text they write about these cycles, we are at the end of a particularly dark cycle called Kaliyuga http://www.chinabuddhismencyclopedia.com/en/index.php/Kali_Yuga
Deep.
Kinda makes you think humanity has been here before...
What if there is reincarnation and all human beings have to undergo or even have lived different lives?
Thank you..will read this later. Be well. Following.
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Thank you...
I'm so sorry that you, or anyone, has gone through anything like this. The only way out of this is through it -- talking about it in the open. Those of us who have never experienced this sort of thing need to respect what people like you tell us. I'm glad that you have good family around you now.
Thank you for the thoughtful reply, my therapist said she doesn't know many who made it through something like this alone as a kid.....I wasn't alone, I had nature, my animal friends, books and art....when I did recovery work in survivor groups I found many kids grown to adulthood that went through abuse and never told anyone until they were adults.
We also have gone through this type of abuse with our government, a fresh example, look what happened to Bernie Sanders people who gave their hearts to Sanders only to have their hearts stolen by the Democratic Party and then on top of all that trauma, have to vote for a criminal like Killary....it's a mad--mad world.
We all need to speak out and shine a light on all this craziness so we can see it's just a bunch of losers with no power of their own.
Nature is a comfort to so many people. Thank goodness it's all around us.
Thanks for sharing . Well spoken . It's time to bring these soul feeders into the light.
Every time I write about my past the details and logistics become a bit more organized and it gets easier to write about. I also have developed a lot more empathy regarding everyone's anger and confusion trying to make sense of the crazy hyper normalization of greed, ignorance, lust, and abusive authority.
For all the nay sayers on Pizza-gate. This thing is very real, and IS EVERYWHERE. You say, if that is so, why don't the police do anything? Well, the police are paid to guard them, that is, if they are not one of them.
Reddust, I am very glad that you found buddhism. The mindfulness that you learn allows you to get to the cores and heal them.
I would like to suggest another piece that really helps. The term they are using is CPTSD. Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It is complex because it has many roots. And the trauma is usually started in your pre-verbal phase, and so you flashbacks are just emotions (no pictures with them).
This person, Richard Grannon, has some very good videos on the subject.
https://www.youtube.com/user/SPARTANLIFECOACH/videos
Also recommend this book CPTSD: From Surviving to Thriving - Pete Walker
http://www.pete-walker.com/complex_ptsd_book.html
My therapy was for those who suffer PTSD, that was way back in the 90s and didn't work very well, it was cognitive based therapy and didn't go as deep as right samadhi can...thank you for the data, I'll check them out. I also did closed group survivor work and worked with a lot of adults who were ritually abused by their family, what people call satanism. I did years of 12 step work with Al Anon as well.
It sounds like you did your healing process in reverse of me.
I did Buddhism first, then learned about CPTSD.
Understanding CPTSD gave me a name, a handle, on what the issue was, and then I could use my meditative tools on it.
I am very glad pizza-gate has come along. Because, even three years ago, people weren't even available to believe that something so evil could exist.
No one wants to hear our stories but they can watch the most violent sexual entertainment one can imagine.
I did the allopathic and modern psychological path way first, about a year of intense one on one and group work, along with meds and then went to the ancient ways of healing through food, exercising, and the spiritual path.
I'm doing pretty good but the stress from living with people we would call psychopaths or sociopaths and their enablers took a toll on my body. Happily my mind is doing better than ever before. I'm getting older but my mind is getting younger!!!
Thank-you reddust for being brave and speaking out. You have been very open with such a difficult, emotional topic. I am so sorry those horrible things happened to you and that you also had no support throughout it.
Thank you, I get headaches writing about this stuff, I have one right now. But we all need to speak out, just like you do with the vaccine industry profiting off people's fear and suffering and hiding all the bad science and millions of fatalities and injuries caused by their greed and hubris.
When I came out of foggy, trusting, sheeplike conditioning of abuse and looked around, I saw our government and institutions we place our trust in, abusing the people that trusted them the same way my stepfather and family abused me...I had to speak out or I become part of this darkness.
I learned to love my survivor abilities and do not mind standing alone in the darkness. Tibetan Buddhism taught me to sing, dance and laugh at such things ;-)
I am very sorry for what happened, these things make me very angry, it is true what you report, it is always the one to blame for things, I have heard this answer many times.
You know my friend @reddust, that you can count on me for what you need.
We all need wise friends, in Pali the name of a wise friend is called Kalyāṇa-mittatā, you are one of them @jlufer, I can tell by your healing stories.
Thank you very much for this beautiful return
Google Mark Passio's work, if you're not already aware of him. I think you'll get a lot out of his research and findings.
Thank you, and I will check him out!
You're welcome. Please let me know what you think.
Satanism, is just as real as other religions for those who are believers and those who worship Satan follow certain rituals to gather spiritual and physical power....I've studied their religion and splinter cults and I believe there is a battle going on that goes beyond our sensual experience. We, especially the pure of heart and the naive are their food. Whether you see it as spiritual vampirism or making a living off of other people's suffering. I see these people as spiritual feeders that feed on gross emotions and farmers of suffering.