RE: Today i'm Taking SHROOMS to HEAL
Thanks so much for the well wishes. So awesome to hear from you. I had a good trip yesterday, mostly relaxing and took the edge off somewhat. A month with no weed, that's quite some time. How are you feeling? I've been off for almost 3 weeks now. I'm not sure if i'll go back to smoking again because all I can get is chemical weed and not organically grown. As well, I feel like more of myself, even though i'm a bit angry right now, I feel stronger mentally That's a good tip, to stop reading and watching the racist garbage, because i'm getting wrapped up in reading the news cast from racist Rebel News and all the racists on that channel. I have to stop indulging, but I find it difficult because they are spreading lies and racism in the general public. It's very frustrating to see them do that in front on my face in this day and age. I have to focus on more positive things. I wish I could stay out of the city, but I live in the centre of the city right now and I can't leave here for a few years at least. When I can leave the city, i'll be in a better place. It's a nice and sunny day here today, so i'm going to get some fresh air and exercise and try and feel good. Have an awesome day and wishing you all things wonderful.
It's a long story but things in my life aren't going well. That is all really I'm permitting myself to say on this here social media at this point. I'm done sharing drama on here. No one cares. Everyone has their own issues like I have mine and no one really wants to hear about others and their dirty laundry. I want to be out doing more activism stuff pissing off these racist baby boomer libtards but for now posting stuff here on Steemit is all I can do at the moment.
Dude, I am sorry to read this. I know you don't want to share it with me, but go back to counseling, get out in nature, find ways to make yourself happy...I am sorry about it for you...life is not such a great thing after all, I get that...I feel the same...why does it work so well so easily for some people and some of us struggle and barely get above water...some people get paid for breathing and piss their opportunities away while others who have great ideas are held underwater and drown before they get a chance...I love you Dude...sorry it is such a struggle for you...not easy for me either...I have nothing to offer you ...no solutions to your problems but I can be someone to talk to...that is all I got...
I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you and I can relate to that because I can't say things are going well for me either. Everyday is a struggle to feel good and I know so many others out there feel the same way. It's difficult living in this society as an awakened person who sees all the injustice around. I do feel like an alien here. I wish I could feel good and positive but I can't lie and pretend that I do. What I do find helpful is being thankful for simple things, such as being able to see, walk, talk, think, smell, taste, that is all I really have right now, but that is more than some people have so I'm very grateful for that. I do care about your feelings and what you're going through, even though we've never met, I really admire you and think a lot of you, how outspoken you are and you don't give a fuck about what people think, you don't conform. I hope we both feel better soon and it's such pleasure to connect with you again, I really enjoy hearing from you.
Yes, I agree with you. The priorities manifested in American life are so fucked up. Everything here is reduced to the struggle for profit and humanity and compassion don't even rate a concern. There is no justice anywhere in sight...You have the right idea - focusing on your senses and your abilities rather than the disability and injustice...sometimes I find it difficult to put one foot in front of the other unless I have gathered all my resolve and charged my batteries in nature to get anough inspiration to proceed. Keep on keepin' on! Glad you care about my son...
Please mute and ignore if not help me downvote this woman @shakanin. She is a rancid succubus of Satan who keeps trolling me and will not leave me alone after I wrote her off shutting her out of my life completely for reasons like this. This is very rude of her to try to get involved butting her unwanted presence in with my personal relationships I try to have with people on Steemit. She does this all the time because she is mentally ill. She can't leave people alone. She has to constantly intrude her unwanted self in peoples lives because she doesn't have one of her own. She is a rude nasty hateful racist succubus of Satan. This is why I don't post anything anymore like I used too. My life is none of her business.
It's important that she respect your boundaries and not intrude into your life without your permission. That has to be very difficult for you and I hope she can understand that you need your space because it's not good to push yourself on people, it's causes resentment. I don't know what she's trying to accomplish by upsetting you. I'll mute her now, so she can't interfere with our conversations and hope she find peace, happiness and understanding towards you in your wishes.
Thank you @shakanin for understanding. I always tell people don't judge my action before knowing my reasons. I wrote her off years ago along with the rest of my family for being the hateful racist white trash pieces of shit that they are. My mother is so mentally ill she is the kind of person that will come into your home, talk shit about you, and then call you the asshole and spit at you when you try to defend yourself from her. She is sick! She only signed up on Steemit to troll me because she can't accept the fact that she fucked up as a mother. She is a narcissist who only butts her unwanted presence in my life to try take credit for anything I accomplish for myself. SICK! This is why I wrote her off completely. I've had to change my phone numbers and emails to avoid her because she doesn't leave me alone. I can't get a no contact order for harassment against her because she lives out of state.
Here is an old blog I posted on Steemit awhile back warning all my followers of her. Just read the memes I made LOL. I never intended on ever bringing up a bunch of unwanted family drama here on Steemit but she signed up just to troll me and asked for it. I can't block her so what else could I do?
https://steemit.com/comedy/@hippie-witha-gun/it-s-my-birthday-and-i-will-cuss-out-my-mother-if-i-want-to
That's good that you removed the toxic people from you life, some people don't have the strength to do that and they get brought down with the negativity. I don't think some people are cut out to be Mothers and it's sad when selfish narcissists have children because it's so harmful on children to grow up in this environment. It's hard when our childhoods have so much trauma and pain and then the ones who cause this try and be in our lives after all the damage they have caused. I believe it would be a struggle to forgive these people if they are still set in their negative ways and try and become involved in our lives again. Bad memories keep coming back and it's so difficult to heal when you are subjected to trauma between the ages of 0-6 because this time is so critical in our development. It's very upsetting when narcissists try and become involved in our lives when they realize they have no-one else and that is why they try and cling on. I could never damage someone and be cruel to anyone and it's hard to understand people who are like this. If Mothers want to have a good relationship with their children then they need to raise them right with love, attention and praise. If they are abusive it's very difficult to form a relationship with them later on. I hope your Mom can leave you in peace and let you heal because there is nothing positive that she is adding to your life, but generating anger and annoyance. If she says she loves you then she has to respect your wishes and your boundaries and let you be. I'm thankful to connect with and honored to have you as a friend here on Steemit. You're so Awesome :)
Thank you for understanding. I'm sorry her presence by rudely interrupting our social interaction got you involved in our drama. That is what she does. So far she has left me alone for a good long while after making that Steemit post almost 2 years ago. I know I don't go around pushing my unwanted self onto people who wouldn't want me around. That is childish and immature. She thinks because I am her son that I have to put up with her toxic unwanted presence being forced upon my life. FUCK THAT! Nope, goodbye. In my world she no longer exists. Along with everyone else that is toxic. What we are born shouldn't dictate what we become. Just because I was born unto a white trash piece of shit family doesn't mean I have to die like one of them too. They can remain pieces of shit for all I care. I'm making history!