Some wounds are just not easy to heal and yes you are right that at times it is because that issue is rooted deep inside you and occurs at a subconscious level. Maybe something happened when you were young and you cannot let go of it. Ponder on it every day and one day you'll get to the bottom of it. Thank you for your appreciation and for sharing your personal feelings here. It takes a lot of courage to do that and I applaud you for that.