‘Feeling So Far Away’

Free Writing and Photograph by B D Miller

Maybe A Better Title Would Be ..

Feeling Like I Am On An Emotional Merry-Go-Round, but that would be way to long even though it is most definitely accurate in defining my current state of well being. The weather, the rush of the Christmas season, the end of the year coming, the death I read about every day, and those around me experiencing life tragedies, are all influencing my thoughts and emotions. All of these simple and complex things play a role in how I view everything, including my photographs and paintings/drawings. What better way to get it all out than a free writing session!

So Here We Go …...

Today I Wanted To Share A Photo ..

That I took of a farm, out near my office. I think it’s quite possible that one could see for miles in any direction, when standing in the location from where I took the photo. I had parked my truck and exited it, then walking about 50 ft to the spot I wanted to be in. Before I lifted the camera into place, I took a moment and realized that I could feel the cool breeze on my face. Soon after I smelled a hint of smoke in the air, which I am sure was from a nearby home, with occupants snuggly and warm. I noticed that I was not at a good angle to the sun, but felt her warmth on my cold face, and I didn’t care. It was quiet and I felt alone. I heard a distant noise that sounded like a diesel truck engine, running through the gears as they shifted up to speed. I felt distanced from all of it, even the scene waiting quietly in front of me. I took the picture and contemplated my distance from it, a little longer, realizing I wasn’t alone. I don’t mean that someone drove up, got out of their car, walked up to me and stood by my side. No. What I meant was that the more I took in the scene in front of me, the more I realized that there was another presence within it, also separated and alone, standing in a field. To the left of my frame, sat a large, old, Oak tree. It caught my eye, and in a moment or two I had become attached to it. It quietly and without complaint, anchors itself into the soil, way out in the field away from it’s farm house. It was so beautiful in its silence and grandeur. I thought about walking a bit closer in order to isolate her from the rest of the scene. If I could just capture her, the tree itself in the frame, then what would I have? I would have but another picture of a tree, between the four edges of a photograph. This time I would leave it be. I was content to let the tree have her distance from life on the farm, from me and my camera and from the trials and tribulations of life. I was content with the picture I had taken. I was content to be back in my warm truck. I was content to be traveling back to others I knew were waiting for me, smiling warmly and speaking hellos. Later on that night, I wasn’t alone anymore and I had, for the time being, forgotten about my feelings of separation and discontent. I didn’t give it any thought until today, when I happened across the photo. There she was, still standing there away from others and alone. There was no color in the photo, just shades of grey and white. I stared at it for a few moments and realized that my mood was changing; I was feeling lonesome and melancholy. I typically don’t view the world in terms of metaphors, but when staring at the tree, alone in the field, I found myself considering it.

“From tiny acorns do mighty oak trees grow.”

Even if it means only to be viewed from a distance.

I Didn’t want my free writing thought to get too deep, but it definitely felt a little bit emotional and dark today. It’s all in good fun, and I am actually in a pretty good mood, despite the amount of work I have to do and things to get done before Christmas. I suppose that I can stop thinking about this tree for now since I was able to write it out of me.

Thanks for your continued support and for reading this garbage. Haha. See ya again Soon!!!

Original Photograph ..

Cropped Black and White ..

Inverted for fun ..

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About Me ~ The Artist

My art work incorporates a wide variety of subject matter, including landscape, seascape, cityscape, and still life images. My works are the product of a continuing process of exploration through which I seek to portray personal and visionary interpretations of my surroundings. My paintings are impressions of places and events from everyday life, an interpretation of my imagination, and personal responses to what I see and feel on a daily basis. More recently I have invested generous amounts of time into my landscape painting. I am surrounded by natural and man made beauty, which inherently presents itself in the tri-state area, and almost demands that I paint it.

Not everything is art. Art is not everything, but it comes close. Art is everywhere and all the time. Art makes you experience the beauty of the world, the people in it, and the places we call home. Art itself is so influential that it can tell stories, show feelings, and express passion or fury. Art exists in addition to language; expression of sensations and thoughts, revealing a way of thinking too subtle and delicate for words.

For me art requires love, honesty and perseverance. In return, it reveals some personal, non-analyzable, and creative untamed passion. For the public, art with its magnificent beauty, improves mood and health and builds better human beings and communities. It engages the intellect, softens the heart, strengthens the soul and frees the spirit.

~ B D Miller