"You are too optimistic."

Said one of our sales managers while we were having a small chat the other day. He was stressing on a lot of things in the office.

"If I were to dwell on all the not-so-good things that are happening around me, we will not be talking right now."

... was my answer.

"I may have already jumped off the window," I continued.

_{The window behind me at our office at the 19th Floor}

But I don't. Instead, I look the other way and see the greater things that are happening around me.

I am a mother to three amazing children.

Three. Never did I imagine that I will have three children. I also did not wish to have three. I used to say, two is enough. A girl and a boy. But God gave us three. Can I contest that? NO.

It is hard to raise three growing human beings. Financially, morally, spiritually. I am challenged everyday. Do I complain? Of physical pain and fatigue, yes. But never to mothering these amazing children. NEVER.

_{A photo from our last vacation, minus daddy @kennyroy. (Courtesy of sissy @erangvee)}

I have the most patient and loving husband on earth.

We disagree on a lot of things, yes. We have varying views in life, yes. Our marriage? It is not perfect. But we stick together. We make things work. Because we swore to stay together, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer. In sickness and in health, to love and to cherish.

_{@kennyroy with kiddos.}

Friends and Family

I have wonderful, crazy friends who can lighted up my day. My friends who I do not see often, I know that the bond we share is greater than the distance and time we spend apart.

My family, despite the distance, I know they are there for me no matter what.

Work and Colleagues

How many people are jobless? I am thankful I am not amongst them. Your work is stressful? I think it is more stressful to think where to find money to buy food to feed yourself or your family.

What am I saying? We need to find way in order to handle unpleasantries. That is life. There is good, but there is bad. Sometimes it is happy, sometimes sad.

There are lots of things that happen to us on a daily basis and it is up to us how we see it. Do we choose to see the bad, or do we try to look at why things are the way they are?

If a person makes a mistake, will you take it against him and ruin your day? Or will you perhaps consider that he may also be going through rough times hence the mistake?

Am I always like this?

Honestly, NO. There are times when I feel flooded with emotions and negativity that I want to hibernate. That feeling when you just want to close your eyes and become oblivious of everything around, with the hope that when you wake up, everything is a lot better.

I am guilty that my children sometimes see me break down and cry.

My heart, most of the time it feels numb and heavy too.

But I try to wake up and see the brighter side.

There are people who are going through a lot worse things than me (us). If they are still standing strong, heads up, despite all trials, then who am I to give up?

It is hard. But with faith and prayers- lots of prayers, and work - a lot of hard work, I try to stand up and stay strong.

That is how I keep my sanity. I need to keep sane for the sake of the people who depend on me.

Trying Times. God's test.

My son asked me once, what is it I fear... My greatest fear is death. Not mine, but those people I hold dear to my heart.

I have come to know that my grandmother-in law passed away in the Philippines today. Nanay was the one who raised and took care of my husband. Since we live overseas, I can count on my fingers the number of times I was able to spend with her. But I cannot forget how caring she was. Despite her old age, she never fails to cook for us and attend to our needs whenever we go to her house.

You will be missed, Nanay. Thank you, because of you I have a loving and patient husband...

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