The main thing is for you to be at your best, pace yourself and feel good about eveything you do day to day. It is so important that we all take care of ourselves first then our families and then Steemit. You have already added to my life in more ways that so many I have known for many years have not. You are always in my thoughts and my heart, I think its that kindred spirit thing we have going on. You can withdraw your poem and apply again in the future. There will be so many other contests. Be at peace in knowing that you are awesome in a multitude of ways which make up who you are. I celebrate you. ~Ren.