This is without a doubt, the best thing I've read on Steemit. You are an incredible writer and sharing your experience with trauma felt incredibly intimate, visceral and raw. I know what it's like to deal with long-term trauma and while I haven't used this specific technique, I've been lucky enough to work with some amazing people who have taught me a lot about how to deal with it. That being said, I realized that the big ones -- the trauma that we carry for a lifetime doesn't go away, but it doesn't have to rule me. I had an experience this summer when I was hiking alone in New Zealand and cried so much I was convinced I could die of dehyradation and heartbreak. But I didnt.

These words "I am a burnt out damaged husk but there is something growing inside of me, and every day I nurture it it gets bigger. So I feel like a child and an old person simultaneously" ring so true I shuddered and read the lines twice.

I look forward to reading more.