Thank you so much @whack.science... I really didn't realize that my story would bring out so much emotion to be honest whackie... and yes, the best people here to listen and help... I've found the best family in the world, the most loving and caring, and I'm so glad that you are a part of that. Writing this has helped me deal with it and start to heal. It's going to be fun figuring out who i am without this hovering over me.
Thanks again Whackie!! I'll talk to you soon!!