I Don't Need Anyone - Poem

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I don't need anyone
Why should I?
All they can say is 'hope you are fine' 'how are you feeling'
Nobody really cares, they only ask for the sake of asking
Like they will understand if I tell them about the voices in my head
Then, will they truly understand and stick around? - I doubt that
Like thoughts of setting myself on fire - will they understand?
That I truly don't want to mother children or get married - will that be fine?
About my believe that organized religion, are world invasion tools
How can they understand - they are small people
Not that I need them to
I don't need anyone

I only need myself, in this broken twisted hell I call my mind
Things weren't always this way
I once loved and needed another
Twisted and complicated like myself
His crazy matched my crazy in so many ways
We could sit comfortably in uncomfortable silences for hours
He was everything I hoped and dreamed for - until he left
I don't need anyone

Lately, I came to understand why he left
To him, I became too familiar, too mundane and banal - but how and why you ask?

How could I have become so consumed in the heat of the moment to have forgotten about myself
To have lost my true uniqueness
I am pleased he didn't forget, he was true
And that makes me even love him more
You see, the broken are the more evolved.

I now realise the power I once had
The powerful feeling of walking out of someone once things get stale
I don't need anyone,
That's what I said to the man I just left.