Words 4.8.19

So what am, I wonder?
To so many of you.
The pathetic needy one?
Because I’m here?
To have your back
To hold you down
To help you out.
Because I’m not like you all
I’m not like this world.
I can’t just decide I don’t care
Trust me
I wish I could
Forget you
Forget them
Forget it all
I’m tired
Tired of being the one to always help
To always be the go to
Because I’ll never stop
Stop being the one to care
Stop being the one to offer support
In any way I can
Because I know what it’s like
To be gasping for air
Trying to claw out if this pit
Alone
In darkness
It’s my home now
But still I’m here
For you
All of you
Forgiving
Protecting
Encouraging
But what am I to you?