You have ups and downs, at least you've been up there, most of us haven't. I have always worked these 8 hour a day jobs, and worse I had to go home worrying about the job, things I'd left undone etc. Right now I am unemployed and I live in a country where there is no welfare, so basically I'm scr*wed. But you have to believe things will get better, and right now I hope they will get better for you and also for myself. Remember money isn't everything, but it sure helps.