Voiceshares #4 - Story Of An Innocent Heart With Feelings Shattered - Does The Heart Deserve This Pain?
A Steemit user wrote his/her story to voiceshares, even as we were reading this tears rolled down unknowingly, is this called humanity?? You connect to other person's problem just by virtually feeling the pain the person is going through.
Well here is the story that was sent to us as a poem,
I cut myself today
to see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the knife creates a scar
that old familiar blade
try to scrape it all away
but i remember everything
skin carte blanche on canvas
each stroke tells something new
a new horizon of bruising
I shouldn't reminisce over you
you became someone else
the past contorted in lies
a once innocent heart long past melt
wearing such a fooling disguise
darkness is all consuming
candles nowhere to be found
a soul no longer blooming
a call from the underground
how much longer will this last
my journey into the unknown
a time perpetually decreasing
no longer than several skimming stones throw.
- Anonymous Steemit Author
Few Lines From VoiceShares Support Team for the story owner:
Thinking of the pain, as the only thing that is real, is like to thinking of a single color to understand the whole rainbow
As we accept the reality of our pain, we have to realize life meant to contain a lot more than that
Like all reality, weather its labeled as good or bad, obsessing over it is never a good idea
We understand you have reached a point of saturation, but try your best and look back once. Look back at few positive moments of life with family, friends or society. If life gives you one reason to leave, it gives you hundreds of reasons to LIVE!!!!
We request you to look at those hundred reason which can be clear outweighed compared to one negative reason, you are an innocent heart and innocent hearts should not suffer. If you stand up and fight there are many out there like you who get the energy to fight their cause.
This is time life has given to you, just stand up and fight... fight to a point where life gives up experimenting with pain on you. You are above all this, you have suffered enough. Get get over this small phase of life..... it will be all beautiful again.
DO NOT TAKE PERMANENT DECISIONS FOR TEMPORARY PROBLEMS!!!!
We from @voiceshares are willing to lend our support, you may also speak to our support team in person. You may choose to do this in your own way and tell us how you want to speak to us, we will be ready accordingly.
We will fight this with you, you are not alone my friend... BE A FIGHTER!!!
We at @voiceshares believe in creating the support system to those souls whose voices are suppressed. We would strongly urge you to write your stories of depression while staying completely anonymous and send it us through the below link.
Google Form Link To Submit Your Story Of Depression
Please include your BTS Address along with your story to receive some voiceshare tokens from our team.
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we would love to have all the interested folks join us in this revolution to create a better tomorrow.
Your words touched my heart. There are things that happen to us that make us feel betrayed by life. Whatever it is that happened with you is unfair and should not have happened. You are hurting so much that you see no way out at this moment.
I smiled reading your poem, not because I don't understand what you're going through. But because you revealed your inner strength by reaching out! That gives me confidence in you. You have the potential to recreate your life and start living once again – the way you see fit, doing what makes you happy.
I can tell you from experience that emotional pain is compounded with the tortures we inflict on our own mind. If the cause of pain is external – from someone else, then you’re doing yourself a grave injustice.
You are precious and your mind, your body and your soul deserve nothing but happiness. Just think about it – how can someone else walk all over you and steal YOUR HAPPINESS. It is this thinking – the need to RESPECT OUR OWN SELF that makes us stronger and alleviates the pain that we assume is meant for us.
You have taken that first step by sending in this poem to VoiceShares. We are PROUD OF YOU. We see YOUR STRENGTH. We BELIEVE IN YOU.
Sharing can help regain your life. We may not have met, but we are all ONE. Get in touch with @VoiceShares. Spend time chatting or even talking about your problems on voice. By sharing, you will slowly discard the negative feelings that someone else imposed upon you. YOU WILL BE HAPPY AGAIN.
He/She will definitely be happy again, thank you for pouring your heart out by connecting with the story... you words means a lot.... We at voiceshares applaud your contribution for the community.....Thank you for being there when it mattered the most
Thank you for posting your story, it is a strong thing to do and a step in the right direction to feeling better again. I do not know anything about you or about your story except for what I can read in your poem, but I know that millions have overcome depression and I know that you can do so to!
Remember the things that used to make you happy and try doing some of them again even though you do not feel like doing them. Go out on walks or do some form of exercise daily and if possible in nature. If you have any friends or family you can talk to - do it! And if you cannot talk to them about your depression, try to gather the strength to spend time with them anyways, just to get out from your house. Try to make a routine if you do not have any and force yourself to stay awake during the light hours. I know that you will probably not feel like doing any of these things, but that is the depression talking and you can overcome it if you decide to no longer believe in the evil things it is whispering to you.
It will take time, but each day you go out for a walk your body will become a bit stronger, and as your body becomes stronger you will start feeling more energetic. Make small goals, that way you will not give up as easily. And do not punish yourself if you do not succeed immediately, be patient - you will get there.
A possible deficit of iron, magnesium, b vitamins, d vitamins and many more can also make your depression worse so it might be a good idea to check those up. And try to eat regularly and drink a lot of water. Taking care of your body really is a good start to feeling better mentally.
If you have the strength and can afford it, I encourage you to seek up a therapist. There are many good ones out there and in my experience nothing helps as much as talking about your problems. There is also online therapy available if you do not feel ready to meet with a therapist in person, but I do recommend traditional therapy since the social experience is important. If you suffer from overthinking or anxiety, you can also try guided meditation videos on YouTube.
Now I realize that I do not know much about you, and you might have already tried all these things. But keep on trying, look for new solutions, and try! Because suicide is the worst imaginable option, it only takes your pain and passes it on to everyone you ever cared about.
You can and you will do this! And one day you will look back to this time in your life and you will have learned a great deal from it. And it will help you help others that are in the same position. Do not give up!
The voiceshares community is here for you so do join our discord! It is a lot easier to help when chatting or talking, and we would all like to be your friend!
The day will come when you no longer feel as miserable, then the day when you will laugh and with time you will feel happiness again. You are strong and you will find your way back!
We understand it is easier on our end to console you by saying self harm is not the way, but you will have your inner voices pulling you towards dark side of life... All we request you to do is just try your best and look at life... When strangers here is soo much concerned about you, it only means people are there who care for you.. you are important to this world..... How can u be alone when you have soo many people who want to see you happy??
If you continue harming yourself you are just harming 1000s f them who believe in you, isn't this a support system, isn't this a start of your second chance in life???
Just think hw many lives you can change by being at your best... we all love you for what u r ... Just get back up and fight!!! It is your time to defeat life now and conquer it!!!
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Everything which you feel within you is self created. Even if you think that something causes something within you, that is still wrong. The only thing that causes something within you is the reactions you have by perceiving something. We all have the power to change the way we see.
The drive to change comes from within, we just need to explore it... It's difficult but there has to be a try
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