This statement really struck my heart :'(

I just basically buy what I need and put aside what I wanted in life because it is what I needed to do in order not to find myself in a deeep worry because my needs often are crucial for my survival in a jungle we call "Life."

I really do hope you can keep on doing great diary. It really inspires me a lot to live life to the fullest and be happy to what I have now. God is great all the time. I will pray for your health and I hope you will be cured as soon as possible in God's grace.