Mommy many people thinks that you are a drama queen you always cry at little thing but I know the these are coming from deep and painful experiences. When I left home years ago I have learned to stop crying I have suppressed all my tears as these tears will not help me feed myself. It made me look seem strong and I played the role of a strong young lady. However there are times that I found myself crying again in deep sleep (my boyfriend tells me so) and I wake up crying , sad and depressed. Sometimes we need to let it out. I see many of sad people showing other people they are happy. I know I feel them. I have been there feeling hopeless feeling that the best thing to do is to just stop it all. But I didn't maybe because deep inside I want to be happy and this happiness is best experienced with other people. I am glad that you have the strength to share it here Mommy. Share it helps. Maybe when I am ready I will also share mine when I am ready the darkest moments when I was alone, desperate and and nobody to turn to. Just keep sharing your tears Mommy.