The 'order' you speak of is certainly a hurdle. There is such an extraordinary sense of being pacified by the comforts of 'normal' routine. It's such a needed instinct for survival. Slowly, the unraveling of an unserving series of habits into a whole new life will have to happen. In and amongst everyone who clings to the status quo! No doubt moving through the abyss. Prayers for you as you have made it to the other side. Take good care of you and your wife! So you may long be the lighthouse for many as we make our way through the dark. Towards true harmony. Life takes on whole new meaning when you begin to yearn for peace rather than be pacified by the "normal" way of doing things. One step at a time. We plod along the complicated mine field life offers. Gratitude, peace & contentment to you ❤🌄🌷