Hey there snowpea!
Even though I´m not on your spiritual path, I´m really happy for you and I´m totally supportive of your faith!
Whatever makes you happy, helps you change for the better, and brings you closer to universal love, is a good thing!
Also, do not worry about your steemit followers that much, it´s not like its your job or anything! Relax, live your life, you will always have a core of loyal followers, even if you don´t make an effort to feed them posts daily.