ULOG #5: Finding A Unicorn

A unicorn to me is a person or thing that is mythical and couldn’t possibly be real.

I have met a few unicorns in my life that are just fantastic and truly wonderful people that I have just naturally felt drawn to.

A few days ago, I met another unicorn that I know was put onto my path to teach me about myself and help me to be a better person.

Photo from Mad About Unicorns Facebook Page

Everyone that we meet in life was put on our path for a reason: to teach us, to hurt us so we may grow, or love us after a hurt to show us how to love again.

This particular unicorn already challenges me to want more from life. I feel a part of my spirit being awakened that has been dormant for a long time.

Awakening the Spirit Within

The part of me that wants to take life by the horns and just ride until I get bucked off, no matter the consequences.

Maybe that sounds reckless but I used to want to live life to the fullest and take advantage of everything that life had to offer.

With the depression and PTSD, that has been harder and harder to do over the years because I haven’t felt as confident in myself or in my own abilities.

Because I don’t often feel safe in public places, I have come to question myself a lot so I don’t always assert myself or put myself out there as often as I should or could.

My newfound friend has a zeal and passion for life unlike anything that I have seen in years and his tenacity is slightly addicting. I want to be like him and I want to find that part of myself again.

I want to be willing to take chances and make changes that will inspire true and lasting growth.

I want to wake up each morning and know exactly where my life is going because I have a goal in my mind and an intention in my heart that it will be so because I will it to be so.

And I want to go confidently in the direction of my dreams without fear of failing or rejection.

As far as feeling safe is concerned, events happen in life that can change us forever and they can happen in an instant.

It’s how we react to these situations that determines the path that our lives will take from that point forward.

If we let the situation take control of our lives, as I have for many years now, we lose out on the ability to live life and we lose pieces of ourselves over time.

Am I cured? No.

I still have my days and my moments where I question whether life is worth living or not and I question why I am here. Sometimes I feel that way many times per day.

But, I quiet that negative voice as often as I can because I don’t want to be the shy, easily intimidated woman that I have been.

I am searching within for the strong, independent woman that I was once that loved life and had so many plans for myself.

Photo of Me!

Maybe, with help of unicorns, I can find her again and bring her back to the surface where she should be.

Thanks for reading,

Ivy

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