Thank you for your reply @socent. You know you are brave for sharing your story. I'm not sure if I can do that yet. Over the years I try to learn to suppress it by forcing myself to not think about it. Although, not exactly the same as yours, but few similarities. Now, all I want is the moment and not remember the past as I could never bring it back. But who knows. Well, take care and have a beautiful day. :)