ULOG 23 | I’m Currently Struggling With Writer’s Block

Sometimes I wonder if I can call myself a writer. Why? Because I struggle to write. Today is one of those days. I want to write a fiction, about five thousand words, for a contest that closes this weekend but I can’t. somehow, the story won’t leave my head. I can see the action as it unfolds but I can’t express it in words.

Why This Worries Me

I have been writing for a few years. Writing has been the source of my livelihood. Before I found Steemit, I used to fill writing orders. I would write for other people in exchange for money. I never liked that as I felt I could never been compensated enough. Thankfully, I found Steemit. Here, I own my content and still get ‘paid’.

However, getting ‘paid’ is kinda hard for me. I don’t know much people and even if I wanted to, I am not a social person. Most times, I prefer to stay on my own, watching a movie, reading a book or listening to music. I think I have more conversations with myself than with others. In trying to make up for my lack of social skills, I decided to focus on contests. The plan was simple: apply for contests. If you win, you get the prize money and post payout. If you don’t, at least you have the post payout. Once in a while @curie comes along with an upvote.

So basically, I am a contest person. Without contests, I have very little hope of getting funds and exposure on Steemit. Thankfully, I am being supported by @steemitcentral, @ogoowinner and occasional visits from @full-measure and @bleepcoin. I wish I could say it’s enough and I’m just being greedy for more but it isn’t.

The 5,000 Words Contest

Sometimes, at the end of the month, I make only $80 - $100. By the time I convert to Steem and then into my local currency (naira), I’m left with about $70 - $85. Sometimes @curie comes along and doubles the amount. But most times, that’s all I have.

I don’t like complaining, especially when it’s not something I ‘deserve’. I understand that no one owes me anything on steemit. The people with so much Steempower made some investment and they are free to use it as they like. Rather than complain, I look for ways to make ends meet.

That’s where this contest comes in. The first price is roughly one thousand five hundred USD. That’s a lot right? I think so too. That’s why I want to take a shot at it. I know they will have so many entries as it’s a very popular contest over here but I’m willing to try my luck

Does This Post Help?

Yes. Writing has a therapeutic effect on me. Not every time though. However, writing about this is actually helping to clear my thoughts. It also assures me that I haven t lost the writing touch. I guess that’s why I like the ulog initiative by @suppassinggoogle - it’s a platform to talk about the ‘U’ (YOU).

That’s a wrap. I need to hit the sack. I’ll try writing the story tomorrow morning

Thanks for reading

[caveat: I wrote this post yesterday night but fouls publish it due to bad internet connection from my end]