The voices that tell us something is not the right choice are always worth exploring even if illogical. As a self-employed artist, I understand the lure of the guaranteed paycheck.

I am not saying don't do it. Sometimes we have to. Just pay attention to your doubt, as you clearly are.

Maybe start a list "It is important to me that..." to figure out what your core issues are and see if you can make some promises to yourself to keep those key things in place.

Either way, take this with a grain of salt and good luck!!