Coming from the country where this is al legal, I have to say that I am quite proud of it. People should deserve to have the option to die if their want to. And why not be open about it, that will make it so much more better understandable for the loved ones.
And remember, euthanasia is not like a lot of people think, going to a place and dying two seconds later. That is process with loads of doctors, witnesses, and talking about it. You have to be sure that you are thinking straight that youreally want this. I think it is a human thing, and should be available everywhere.

Your journey sounds really like a search for the meaning of life. And it is cool that it brought you so much on learning about yourself and humanity. And there is always a better way...for everything!