Beautiful post. You have a lot of depth to you diabolika, much more then the average girl. You definitely are special and a more then worthy to be loved, adored and appreciated for all your wonderful qualities. Love is definitely a complicated thing especially when one has been hurt and have to depend one oneself. You deserve someone who will be a great companion, who will take care of you for a change. With Love there is always a risk but there also are great rewards. Like you say, its pointless to have all these wonderful moments without someone to share it with. I came to this conclusion as well as I was in Thailand and also hope for a suitable companion. THanks for sharing