Good on you brother. Glad you try even if it ain't easy.
The wolf has always played a big part in my life. Through scouting/OA my family earned some nick names. They are in a native language but they roughly translate to: wolf tied with hair (my grandfather), the deceiving wolf (my father), mother wolf(my mom) and the second son of the wolf (is my brother).
Super cool. When I lived on the rez and did my 'vision quest', I was led by all three spirits, but ultimately chose the bear. I can tap into any of the three 'spirit guides' though ;)