it's hard to believe it is not just a bad dream.
I still can't believe it has really happened in my city, and it has touched my family.

When we see terrible news about terrorists on TV, it sounds horrible, it's awful and painful, it's always connected with pain and death, but it's somewhere far... We never suppose it can happen with us. But it can.

It happened 3 days ago, and now I at least start to talk, think and write. Earlier I was just in deep shock and could only cry...

My posts of last days had been prepared in advance and sheduled.
Now some days passed, and I at least started to get out of shock and can talk and write something.

I was thinking for a long time if I should tell it here, how people will perceive it, and actually how I can find words to describe it because heartpain is extremely strong now..

Then I decided to try.
People should know what is happenning right now in the world, and it's great if they know it not only from mass-media. Later you'll understand why..

My city Kerch is a rather small and calm city. So this even has become really sensational and epochal. And it can't be different in any city actually - terror is always crushing news..

So..

10.17.2018 - it was an ordinary day, sunny and warm.
No signs of anything special.

And it was great!
Now I understand that no news is good news!
There are no ordinary or boring days!
if you wake up, you're healthy, and your family is healthy - it's already a great day!!! How often we forget about it..

Me and my sonny were going to have a breakfast, and suddenly a phone rang.
It was my friends from another city.
I wasn't glad because she never calls me just for chatting, we communicate in social webs only.

I tried to overcome my bad feeling, maybe she has some extraordinary good news and wants to share it right now, that's it!

She really had news, but not good one.

Have you already heard??? An explosion in Kerch! Shooting! - she cried in the phone.

I didn't realize what she was talking about. Shooting?? In my calm city?? No!!! Impossible!

Shooting in the technical college! - she cried.

At that moment I was about to faint.

My brother's son studies there!!!

I didn't listen to her any more... Horror, shock, panic...

I don't watch TV, so I didn't knew anything that day, but all TV-channels was shouting about it during some hours (as it turned out later).

I ran to my PC to see the latest news. Maybe she was wrong, it's just fake news, a bad joke, but no..

All sites and articles showed news about a terrorist attack in that very college!!

I didn't remember how I started to phone to my brother, and how lond I was making it because he didn't reply...
I was shaking, the heart was about to run away from my chest...

It seemed to me that I was waiting for his recall during not 10-15 minutes but 10 years! Those minutes were just terrible...I can't describe it...

suspense сan kill... You know nothing! Where is he? Is he alive? What happened?? Just waiting for the call and hoping...

I was looking through Internet news: an explosion, shooting, terrorists, there're dead and wounded kids...

It happened an hour ago, so news didn't give detailed info, only pieces of facts, and it was the worst.

At last the brother recalled me!!

He said he was in the hospital with our boy...

Alive! Thanks Heaven!!

But he was wounded.

Some shrapnel in his legs and deep shock..
But he was alive!!!
Tears of relief...An ocean of tears.

Later when I was able to understand at least something, I got news.

At 12 o'clock a boy, a student of this very college made an attack: he had a hunter's gun, cartridges and improvised explosive devices.

The territory was fenced, a large cordon zone, hundreds of militaries, policemen, firemen, ambulance...
panic, tears, horror, vanity, howling sirens, screams, crying..

I can't describe what we saw in those terrible videos..

All main authorities came to Kerch. Dozens of doctors came here in some hours from Moscow, because there was a lack of doctors in my city.

Citizens were in great panic! Streets were deserted for the whole day!
Great fear and despair were felt in the air...

Internet stes and social web groups were just crazy!
News appeared almost every minute. People wrote new facts, suggestions, ideas, info from witnesses, info about dead and wounded kids, most of facts were unchecked, they were just fake and trash, but we all needed info and were reading everything to understand at least something...

Soon first facts appeared:

More than 20 people were killed.

More than 50 were wounded.

It was a nightmare.

But our boy was alive! The main news for us!

He had an operation at that very day
Some of shrapnel pieces were taken away by local doctors.
Some of them are still in his legs, and he was transported too the capital of the Crimea to have an operation after the medical concilium there. We are still waiting for the result and hoping...

Now it's informational madhouse.
All TV-channels and Internet tell only about it.
Russia is shaken by this event not less than Kerch.
People from all cities propose help and support, all are in deep shock.

Now my city and the whole Russia is in mourning for 3 days..
People are frightened very much.
All kids organisations are closed.
Parents are afraid to go out and let kids go for a walk.
Federal Security Service advises not to visit crowded places.
The city is full of militaries, policemen, doctors and sappers.

Horror and grief reign in Kerch now..
It's the end of our peaceful life...

What about the terrorist attack itself...I'll share info with you when I realize where there is truth, and where it's only trash and fake news.

Take care of yourself!

Every day with your beloved family is a treasure!