Brother, I am SO sorry. Words cannot express sufficiently. I have had to think about the best response and in truth, there is no right or perfect thing to say. My heart breaks for you and for your family. For a woman to lose a child...is a gut wrenching thing. For a father to lose a son, I cannot fathom. And I won’t try to tell you you should believe in God. Ideally it would be awesome if He was your Savior, but I can’t make you believe what I do. So much respect. And yes - I believe in many spiritual layers as well. Not like us as sentient beings, but we are all connected. Our hearts have eternity woven in them. Babies and children are precious and I believe they are taken into heaven without question. Imagine after so many years since Roe v. Wade and so many little ones lost by other means that Heavennis teeming with Kids. To me, that seems the most glorious and raucous and entertaining thing. They are all angels, so why wouldn’t they beat us back there?

I feel Christianity as a whole has been really wrecked by hypocrisy and the facade of perfection, while most non-Christians love more deeply and purely. I’m not a better than so and so because of being Christian, but a better person than what once was in this body and have become more loving and patient and have had to get up and fight - and fighting teaches you about what really matters in life. Get angry - but angry about the right things. Grieve and rejoice. Cry and sing. Rise up and rest. All and each when the time is right. I will just keep you all in prayers because it matters somewhere and prayer that is real creates energy in the universe for good.

The more I read the Bible, the more questions I ask, the deeper I go with it all, the more I believe. As a scientist and as a human being with emotions and a heart. Safe to say, I’m confident you can hold your son in your arms. But thankful for the loved ones you still have. I just wish I had the capacity and means to take the pain and wreckage from you. Really.

And the 5G thing - it is also much deeper than we all think. Just searching for more answers. We have talked about bugging out, prepped for it for seven years, and there is a super powerful interview you should check out if you really need a distraction. Over on @sgtreport - Steemit Page. Sean does excellent interviews about 5G, AI, crypto, Big Wobble, solar magnetism.

On the note of the above, AI. I believe Blockchain is the foundation of AI. Who knows, maybe Satoshi is AI. Maybe Charlie Lee is Satoshi. Nah. But one thing I am gathering is that everything on the surface web, deep web, dark web, it’s all coding the AI and writing the AI program. So what we say, do, think, feel, share, look at, buy, hear....if it is all feeding AI, what do we want it to say? A master or benevolent dictator or a force for good? So I’m choosing positivity when possible, wonder, hope, Love, kindness. It is not easy, the world would have anything else. But AI should be learning compassion and respect - counter the culture.

I still cannot get over your loss. You all are on my mind. I wish for you nothing but peace in your hearts as time passes. And blessings you cannot see or understand right now.

Give them a hug for me.